FBI Told Orlando Shooter's Wife Not to Tell US Media He Was Gay

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147. We don't know all there is to know about this man yet.

Whether he hooked-up with another man or not, we have no way of knowing.
If he never had a sexual relationship/encounter with any man, I doubt he is
the first gay man to die never having done so. The point is that he was
probably ambivalent about his sexuality.

What were his choices?

1) Tell his wife he is not heterosexual, that he is actually gay. Get a divorce.
Announce to his family (who are Muslims) and friends that he is gay, and incur
their wrath, rejection and shunning. His father does not seem "open-minded"
or progressive to me. Sadly, he did not have the courage to take these steps.

2) Live a dual life and a lie. Cover-up and, in the end, over-compensate with
hate-language against gay people.

The over-compensation went too far. He resolved his conundrum by claiming
that he was a fundamental Islamist, killed gay people for "his country", and
killed himself (suicide by cop) How many gay men or women commit suicide
because they feel hopeless -- rejected by society or themselves?

He was neither gay nor straight, but somewhere in a hellishly confusing middle-
ground.
He was definitely an angry, violent person. I don't have any sympathy for him or
why he did what he did. I see him as a tortured, miserable, violent human being
who chose to do something heinous as a way to solve his dilemma (ego-dystonic
homosexual feelings) and he used religion to justify and rationalize his actions.

If self-loathing of sexual feelings can not be the sole explanation, then neither can
Fundamental Islamism. There are many issues contributing here. Tortured psyche
is one.