My heart is broken

[renate]

100. I'm so sorry

I can't begin to imagine the shock. He was so young, and it was so sudden, and you expected to grow old with him. My heart is broken for you.

Are you the kind of person who is drawn to rituals, or altars, or anything you can do or create to turn some of your emotional pain into a physical thing? I wonder whether having a symbol of your grief out there in the world, where you can look at something outside yourself, might relieve some of the internal pain you're feeling without trying to make it go away before its time. Or would it help to do good deeds in his name, to spread to others the joy that he brought to you? Just little acts of kindness, like holding a door, or offering a smile to a stranger, in his honor?