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MotorCityMan

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33. boston bean, you have me in tears here
Thu Oct 13, 2016, 11:07 PM
Oct 2016

You have beautifully summarized the feelings of ANYone who has had to deal with unwanted sexualwri advances.

I'm 52 now, but can remember in detail a very inappropriate sexual encounter with my uncle, 50, when I was 16. Teenagers today are a lot more aware of the world, back in 1980, maybe not so much. ALL your answers describe perfectly what I put myself thru after it happened. Afterwards, I still had to deal with him and his disgusting comments to me and trying to touch me. I desperately wanted to tell my parents, but was so afraid (and still believe I am right about this) that they would never believe me. The feelings of self disgust, blaming myself, it was all there. On top of that, I knew I was gay at the time, but after the incident, I spent so long telling myself, no, you're not gay, because I was so disgusted by the incident. It was the one time in my life i came close to killing myself, to the point of standing in the bathroom with a razor to my wrist. At that point I thought, "You're really going to throw your life away over HIM?" and realized there was no way I was going to do that.

I've disliked Trump since the 80's, thought of him as a self centered, egotistical jerk who was his own biggest fan. After this election season, and especially with these (probably still) ongoing revelations, I view him with a disgust that borders on absolute detestation.

Thank you for expressing in words exactly why the victims of these kind of attacks keep their mouths shut.

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knowing that the police, hospitals, etc., will probably treat you like crap (like the niyad Oct 2016 #1
Not hospitals in my experience elias7 Oct 2016 #71
women who have gone to catholic hospitals have had quite different experiences. niyad Oct 2016 #73
Boston, with love and gratitude, it's not just about feelings Small Accumulates Oct 2016 #2
That is the truth. Thank you! boston bean Oct 2016 #3
Thank you. Small Accumulates Oct 2016 #8
I had some today myself. Michelle Obama's speech brought it all home. boston bean Oct 2016 #10
She was WUNNNNderful! calimary Oct 2016 #48
^^^Thank you^^^ onecaliberal Oct 2016 #18
Jack Kingston, a Trump surrogate, sarae Oct 2016 #4
Kingston should have been asked why he hadn't read the article she wrote csziggy Oct 2016 #17
And when it comes to us, how the (male-centric)world treats us BlancheSplanchnik Oct 2016 #31
^ BlancheSplanchnik Oct 2016 #29
Well, duh: The problem isn't want he DID, it's that she stayed QUIET about it!!! Beartracks Oct 2016 #39
The fear of being sued awoke_in_2003 Oct 2016 #40
Yep... sarae Oct 2016 #61
Also blogslut Oct 2016 #5
True. boston bean Oct 2016 #7
yes. BlancheSplanchnik Oct 2016 #32
And look at the reaction right now gratuitous Oct 2016 #6
And the women participating in it provides a different piece of hell. boston bean Oct 2016 #12
Maybe being treated like it was YOUR fault that you were assaulted if you do report it. 4lbs Oct 2016 #9
All very true! boston bean Oct 2016 #13
It is a silent crime. sheshe2 Oct 2016 #11
So true, she!! boston bean Oct 2016 #16
And even worse when the abuser is a sue-happy billionaire with a team of lawyers bhikkhu Oct 2016 #14
One only has to look to Bill Cosby to understand how this all works in real life for women. boston bean Oct 2016 #15
K&R Solly Mack Oct 2016 #19
kick . . . annabanana Oct 2016 #20
This message was self-deleted by its author kestrel91316 Oct 2016 #21
I accepted it was all my fault. erinlough Oct 2016 #22
K&R... spanone Oct 2016 #23
Because I was six years old LiberalLoner Oct 2016 #24
My deepest sympathies, LiberalLoner MotorCityMan Oct 2016 #38
Thank you so much. I am sorry for what you endured, too, LiberalLoner Oct 2016 #52
I am so sorry that happened to you and your mother abused you again. nt raccoon Oct 2016 #62
Thank you. It happened to way too many of us, male and female both. LiberalLoner Oct 2016 #64
I was molested by a man twice my weight and 6" taller than me when I was 21 years old.... George II Oct 2016 #25
This message was self-deleted by its author Kathy M Oct 2016 #26
There's a #WhyDon'tWomenReport iandhr Oct 2016 #27
I was 7 MFM008 Oct 2016 #28
You confided in a friend at a time who told you spooky3 Oct 2016 #30
boston bean, you have me in tears here MotorCityMan Oct 2016 #33
I'm glad you are still here, I'm glad you had a fighting spirit and didn't let the evil win. LiberalLoner Oct 2016 #53
Another reason: moonscape Oct 2016 #34
Yes, that. SticksnStones Oct 2016 #57
That one too! Very true for me as well. boston bean Oct 2016 #60
You can't sacrifice your career. herding cats Oct 2016 #35
Because I was 11 when it started and deeply conflicted. manicraven Oct 2016 #36
I'm gonna share this with a friend who I've been very angry with. BlancheSplanchnik Oct 2016 #37
Unless you are 12 years old and your molester is a "highly respected" minister mommymarine2003 Oct 2016 #41
Or if you're 22 and convinced yourself you deserved it Rose Siding Oct 2016 #65
BECAUSE HE SAID, SHE SAID. we WERE NOT BELIEVED BEFORE. pansypoo53219 Oct 2016 #42
There was a time, and in some relationships today, asiliveandbreathe Oct 2016 #43
I am so often embarrassed to be a male. Stonepounder Oct 2016 #44
The denouement of your story reminds me of another ColemanMaskell Oct 2016 #49
Thank you, BB. brer cat Oct 2016 #45
All outrageous; but Child sexual abuse is the worst; and it is so appallingly commonplace ColemanMaskell Oct 2016 #46
Because it's emotionally exhausting LeftyMom Oct 2016 #47
....and many more. N/t Mira Oct 2016 #50
Not about feeling. TygrBright Oct 2016 #51
Maybe it's because madamesilverspurs Oct 2016 #54
Because all of the above Pachamama Oct 2016 #55
You will be blamed for it Behind the Aegis Oct 2016 #56
K&R betsuni Oct 2016 #58
K&R smirkymonkey Oct 2016 #59
So many people decry what Trump said, yet deny women's claims of mistreatment. alarimer Oct 2016 #63
Long time ago, recently "recovered" but long time repressed... CTyankee Oct 2016 #66
Message auto-removed Name removed Oct 2016 #67
With regard to reporting groping (sexual assault) ecstatic Oct 2016 #74
Federal law on groping (aka "Abusive Sexual Contact") ColemanMaskell Oct 2016 #77
Fear Of Job Loss EOM otohara Oct 2016 #75
Feeling like you did nothing to have someone grab you like that kimbutgar Oct 2016 #76
At the time Donald was as good as a NOBODY sanatanadharma Oct 2016 #78
Interesting Article on this very topic in Huffington Post today ColemanMaskell Oct 2016 #79
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