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Leghorn21

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22. My dear butdiduvote, I am wrecked and ruined. I have moments or maybe a few hours when

Wed Feb 1, 2017, 12:39 AM

Feb 2017

I'm not, but overall, I can't imagine that my psyche or inner self or whatever will ever be able to breathe again until this unending serious of smacks upside my head STOP. Just STOP.

Oh, I can get shit done, but most days I have to force myself to look away from this slo-mo catastrophe and run errands or go to the doc or whatever...but I have to really exert myself to accomplish even the most innocuous chore (which, I learned years ago, can be a symptom of deep grief: "The smallest tasks appear insurmountable".)

But I figured out a couple of weeks ago that the main reason I canNOT "look away" is because I by God have so many agonizing days/months/years invested in this "drama" that I have just GOT to be present at that moment, that glorious, sweet, savory moment when this motherfucker is GONE. However that may happen, I could care less, just disappear, just GO.

So listen, you're on DU here, and you may read of terrible things, but you will also read hilarious things and powerfully uplifting things as we all slog through this putrid swamp together...please do stay with this remarkable group!!

Also - my sister is a brilliant psychologist. And we speak rarely of her clients because - well, ethics and such! But many of her peeps were deeply, painfully traumatized when it came to pass that the new president of the United States was a sexual predator...I MEAN. And I'll bet you cash money they are still trying to come to terms with that knowledge on a daily basis, eh? - hey, any therapist/shrink who minimizes where you're at is bogus. 100%.

I am angry one moment, cross-eyed exhausted the next, then I'm on fire, then I'm homicidal, then I can't believe what just happened, then I am so deeply moved by the beauty and splendor that The People manifest, both here and across the planet...rinse, repeat, ad infinitum.

Dammit butdiduvote - I'll hang in if you will!! Peace, and welcome to DU -

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Anyone else having a mental health crisis over this administration? [View all] butdiduvote Jan 2017 OP

Nah, i was already there. CentralMass Jan 2017 #1

You are not alone my friend. Doodley Jan 2017 #2

I get what you're saying renate Feb 2017 #75

You are not alone Frogg Jan 2017 #3

First, you're in the same spot as a lot of us are. MontanaMama Jan 2017 #4

+1 narnian60 Feb 2017 #80

Yes, and lots of other people are, too. You are not alone mnhtnbb Jan 2017 #5

My therapist agrees. athena Jan 2017 #15

Listen you do what you can. If you can't participate in a protest you can pick up the phone...if TrekLuver Jan 2017 #6

Just a thought Phoenix61 Jan 2017 #7

Sorry but, we needed this. Gman Jan 2017 #8

No, We Didn't Need this.. tell that to the Planet.. our SCOTUS and Cha Feb 2017 #25

I agree, Cha. LisaM Feb 2017 #27

This is mild compared to what other countries go through Gman Feb 2017 #43

This is our Country.. our lives. Our Planet. We did NOT "need" trump.. Cha Feb 2017 #44

With you Cha! People think this is a game. Madam45for2923 Feb 2017 #47

Yeah, the rich who can afford to live their lives Cha Feb 2017 #51

+1 & beyond. Raine1967 Feb 2017 #66

No. Just no. Hekate Feb 2017 #40

I'm trying to see something "positive", and it's hard. hamsterjill Feb 2017 #57

This is a pretty cold response to a heartfelt OP. Raine1967 Feb 2017 #67

Thank you butdiduvote Feb 2017 #70

I don't know who this "we" is, butdiduvote Feb 2017 #69

What's going to rise from the ashes won't be the imaginary Phoenix some expect. herding cats Feb 2017 #71

This OP, man... part of me thinks, trump hasn't even DONE anything yet, if people are literally dionysus Feb 2017 #72

I'm not saying it's rational butdiduvote Feb 2017 #77

I believe you... like said, ive felt the same way... you feel likebyou're being crushed in a vice dionysus Feb 2017 #78

Yes, perfect way to describe it. butdiduvote Feb 2017 #79

The system is designed to resist major change. joshcryer Feb 2017 #84

Drinking more and a little less sleep. sarcasmo Jan 2017 #9

Everyone I know expresses some sort of depression over his presidency kimbutgar Jan 2017 #10

That's a good idea. butdiduvote Jan 2017 #11

Not doing so well at all. A lot of anxiety and anger and generally pissed off at 62+ million tRump SammyWinstonJack Jan 2017 #12

I understand. AC_Mem Jan 2017 #13

There is a time and place for everything. We will need people to get out there and register folks, nikibatts Jan 2017 #14

I am anxious. But I am the anxious type. I have learned good cooling skills,though AgadorSparticus Jan 2017 #16

It's a lot to process and sort through ecstatic Feb 2017 #17

Enjoy life and send positive, caring energy out to those who need it and open yourself KittyWampus Feb 2017 #18

Gained weight from comfort eating marlakay Feb 2017 #19

definitely not alone, I made a similar post in our mental health support group steve2470 Feb 2017 #20

My boyfriend suggested I see a psychiatrist..... fNord Feb 2017 #21

My dear butdiduvote, I am wrecked and ruined. I have moments or maybe a few hours when Leghorn21 Feb 2017 #22

I'm on edge every day wondering what shoe will fall next. Lint Head Feb 2017 #23

We just do what we can.. do not feel guilty! Hillary's Winning meant Cha Feb 2017 #24

when you're ready..when you've processed the current situation in a coherent manner Demonaut Feb 2017 #26

Okay. That's all perfectly, completely understandable. politicat Feb 2017 #28

Thanks for all of the suggestions. butdiduvote Feb 2017 #32

Politicat, this is a superb post. I'm going to print out the self-care checklist Hekate Feb 2017 #41

You are simply amazing. herding cats Feb 2017 #73

I'm right there with you. Control-Z Feb 2017 #29

I survived Nixon Warpy Feb 2017 #30

I'm struggling also mvd Feb 2017 #31

My advice, and you're not going to like it Yupster Feb 2017 #33

Yeah, you're right butdiduvote Feb 2017 #34

Calm down and meditate vlyons Feb 2017 #35

yes MFM008 Feb 2017 #36

Natural Supplements Frogg Feb 2017 #37

For what it's worth, you're not alone. Dark n Stormy Knight Feb 2017 #38

My DIL says her therapist's phone started ringing at 8am Nov. 9. I went back into therapy in Dec.... Hekate Feb 2017 #39

you are definitely not alone Afromania Feb 2017 #42

My advice: Your local food bank needs your help. Forget about Trumpy and company and go help out. FSogol Feb 2017 #45

Don't let them win. cwydro Feb 2017 #46

I take heart in the fact that people are making a lot of noise. alarimer Feb 2017 #48

With you! Madam45for2923 Feb 2017 #49

I do have to suppress my urge to kill on an hourly basis... Blue_Tires Feb 2017 #50

Me too shenmue Feb 2017 #52

I'm going to climb a tree, Mendocino Feb 2017 #53

Dear Dem friend I made this OP for you: Madam45for2923 Feb 2017 #54

Why thank you :) butdiduvote Feb 2017 #68

I say this with your best interests at heart. TexasMommaWithAHat Feb 2017 #55

This is really good advice LeftInTX Feb 2017 #60

Worse Than GWB otohara Feb 2017 #63

Do you think part of the idea behind DJT's actions is... MountCleaners Feb 2017 #56

A hand full of Xanax obliviously Feb 2017 #58

Yes. I can't shake the depression. Butterflies Feb 2017 #59

Message auto-removed Name removed Feb 2017 #61

Me. In a bad way. Zero System Feb 2017 #62

Welcome Back! GP6971 Feb 2017 #64

Thank you...I didn't realize Zero System Feb 2017 #87

It was like an eight year vacation from Ilsa Feb 2017 #65

I know what you mean ribrepin Feb 2017 #74

That is a double edged sword. gordianot Feb 2017 #76

Tough thread to read...mental incapacity, depression, suicide, urges to kill... jmg257 Feb 2017 #81

I was away from the internet for 8 hours MountCleaners Feb 2017 #82

I'm fucking terrified GliderGuider Feb 2017 #83

Millions of Americans can expect to experience serious mental health issues due to the terror of the ladjf Feb 2017 #85

Yep - my depression and anxiety are so much worse nadine_mn Feb 2017 #86