I've been in denial.

[kydo]

88. Yeah, it's like an episode from the Twilight Zone.

What was up is now down. What was right is now wrong. What was black is now orange.

I am sickened with disgust. Anger is boiling directly underneath.

The two weeks after that orange thing committed treason by stealing the US election with open cooperation with russians and nazis', I was in complete state of shock. As the shock waned anger and depression filled the void left by the shock.

I completely left my church. Before that dark day, I was extremely involved with my church. I was a Catholic. Far too many there voted, supported, and admired anything republican and that orange shit. The hypocrisy is just sickening! I ended up turning in my keys Feb 3. During that time (11/8-2/3) I went from 125lbs to 98lbs.

Since then, I joined a gym, got a trainer. It helps with the anger. That and the way I see it, I was in no shape to fight back. I need to be able to march in protests! Walk areas to canvas for Dem candidates. And all the things it takes muscle and strength to do.

Hey I can do a pull-up now! I have never been able to do that. It took me 51 years but damn it, I can do pull-ups now!

I am still angry. Watching your country being destroyed does have that effect on people.

I totally feel and understand where you and the many that have replied to your post, are coming from. I am there too. But with a lot more muscle mass! And abs! For the first time in my life, I like my body. It looks good!