I need new Friends...or something... [View all]

[FirstLight]

Woke up today just depressed, lonely and overwhelmed..
As a single mom of teens, and having been alone much of my adult life..I usually just suck it up and keep moving forward. But these last few months/weeks have taken their toll and I have never felt so alone or unsupported in my LIFE.

* Parents taking turns at having strokes, my sister is the older responsible type and I am too broke to drive to their house everyday so I have to do what I can to support them.
* Teen-son has been making life HELL at home for about 6 months now...and I can't seem to get the counseling I need or help from the school. Home life is either let him get stoned and do what he wants or have huge fights and end up with the sheriff/cps at our house.
* teen-daughter is flaiing in school because of chronic health issues and depression/anxiety over brother's issues. She's actually a straight-A student and is trying to get into independent study so she can graduate early and get ON with her life...

Meanwhile I work, come home sleep and work again. I have NO real social life, and the "friends" i have are all involved with their own families. I post a small rant needing support and they all decide it's time to tell me I'm not parenting enough and my kids should be helping more. FUCK! Can **I** get some attention and support maybe?

There are just some days when I wish I had someone to hold me and take care of me for a change.
There are days when I wish I could have some fun and not be worried that things are going crazy all around me.
There are days when I need nurturing, and I don't have anyplace to get it.

Sorry to rant here, but it seemed as good a place as any.
Now I have to suck it up, stop blubbering and get ready for work...again...

I need a fucking vacation...