You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do.
She, in my opinion the greatest Democrat who ever lived, did the thing she thought she could not do.
It's tough in the academic world; even some of the great universities with impressive endowments are struggling, more casualties of Trumpism. We are living through a triumph of ignorance, hopefully though coming to an end.
My son's university, from which he will get his degree in December - he will probably go to graduate school there - announced a $40 million shortfall this year, even with an impressive endowment. (They are going through an ill timed expansion, although there is no way they could have anticipated how the timing would work out.)
A friend of mine told me his daughter's College - Green Mountain College in Vermont - failed, but I certainly hope your university pulls through. I'm fairly convinced my wife's former university will fail; their bonds are junk status and they are surviving, as best I can tell, on debt.
I wish you the best, particularly since you both work at the same University. Hopefully things will change at your institution and you'll pull through.
I've always regretted in a vague way not pursuing an academic career - frankly I was ill equipped for one, given my emotional volatility when I was young - but I'm glad my wife and I are in different fields entirely.
Good luck. Experience tells me that doors do open; but I fully understand how difficult it is to see it. My wife at least has my experience on which to fall back.