I Haven't had a drink for 4 months now

[LittleGirl]

41. Congratulations Rhiannon!

I'm so proud of you my friend.

I'm having a serious discussion in my head about drinking alcohol. My body wants to reject it all and I really enjoy having a cocktail. I'm not a daily drinker but someone that wants to be able to drink a drink without my body having fits. I think it's a sign that I should let it go but it's so hard to give it up. Thankfully, spouse gave up a long time ago just because his body doesn't tolerate it either. He's never had a problem with it though.

I'm going to try to get through this next month and see how it goes. My Mother is in hospice care and I don't know how it's going to go for me. The damage she's done to my mental health since I've lived in Europe has made this situation very hard. I've been indulging too much lately and my body is fighting back. I hope she goes quickly so I can get on with my life and get my shit together. without alcohol.