Am I a shit? Or what would you do? In the summer of 2023, my sister told us she had uterine cancer. We drove up to

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38. Then, it's time to cut the cord.

You need to heal yourself for Rick's sake and your own. You've been abused and it has to stop.
If you can, get counseling. There are plenty of people who have been down this hole and they know the way out.
Honor and respect are a two way street. You haven't receive any, absolutely no reason why you should hurt yourself trying to return it. Your family does not deserve it.
"Maybe I am a nasty person." In this old bat's opinion, you're one of the sweetest people on DU. For the sake of yourself and the people you love and love you in return, slam the door in the face of the real nasties and lock it.

Healing thoughts for Rick and yourself.