I don't know what to do.

[Trueblue Texan]

76. I am saying a prayer for you...

I don't really pray, but I know some of the pain you are feeling and so I will send healing thoughts for you. I lost my good boy last month and my heart breaks all over again every time I think of him. I seem to grieve the hardest for my pets too--maybe something is wrong with me, but I've just had so much more quality time with them than people--I get so close to them. I am so sorry you're having to process yet another loss when you've not even found a way to live with so many other losses. Lately I have been just not allowing myself to cry because it only makes me cry more and I end up feeling worse than if I had never let the tears flow. It seems to help--for a while anyway. I also have a 15 year old dog--she's the mother of the one I lost last month. I tell myself when I lose her, it won't be as bad as losing Emo--I loved him more than life. But I knew this was going to be the year I'd lose them both. You are right, life can be so damned tragic. I guess the best we can do at times like this is to know there are some people who care and who would relieve you of your pain if they could. And if I could, I surely would, LuckyCharms. Take care. I am thinking of you and sending healing thoughts for you and your good boy.