Do you give sh*t about what others think of you?

[Inkfreak]

53. If I didn't, I suppose I'd be a bit lonely.

To have friends you must on some level I think. I mean its not to the point where I behave in a vastly different manner. But at some point I must give considerations to how others think & feel. So in that sense, yea. I do care what others think. And then I'll conduct myself accordingly.

Example: im about to help a friend finish up fixing a house he's selling. It's the last thing I wanna do. But I don't want him thinking I'm a douche for not volunteering. So imma go pretend I like painting & cleaning. And would not rather be doing anything else. This sounds rather childish I suppose. But if I didn't care what he thought, I'd not help. And of course it's the right thing to do. Help out others. I do realize in my head that its a shitty attitude. But I'm a bit of an asshole I think. So I try to compensate for this by helping out friends & trying to be a good person. To stave off the inner shithead. I prolly need to see a shrink.