Is AA a legitimate group? I went to one meeting and something just didn't seem or feel right.

[nomorenomore08]

44. I don't know you, and your level of "using" doesn't seem catastrophic in the short term at least.

But you seem aware that you're doing a little too much, and that it's difficult to stop. Ironically, IIRC benzodiazepines are (or were, in the past) often used to treat alcoholism, but for someone who seems to have a problem with both, I'm not sure what to say.

I also don't subscribe to the 12 Step philosophy myself, despite having had substance abuse issues of my own - which I'm still on meds (buprenorphine) for - I have no desire for "perfect sobriety" whatever the hell that means. I still drink beer and smoke weed, but at least I'm not shooting/snorting anything anymore.

Like other people are saying, though, you might want to give this group a chance - 2-3 more meetings maybe, at least - or else try to find another one that fits you better. Or do like I did and go see an addiction specialist, who might be able to help you adjust your meds and so forth.

Either way, good luck!