I don't get why people LIKE drinking themselves unconscious.

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25. Most people don't LIKE drinking themselves unconscious - though the people who drink to escape might

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I drank heavily through most of my life, though never developed a "drinking problem".
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I drank for fun... and passing out (or getting sick, which didn't happen after the
"learning-curve" years) was NOT a goal -- it was antithetical to my "goal" (that
is also the reason I never liked "downer-style" drugs... they seemed JUST like
getting really, really drunk QUICKLY without all the fun involved in GETTING
really, really drunk.
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Although... my divorce devastated me (I had married/mated for life and STILL
loved my wife). I stayed drunk for a year TO escape. I kept my day job, but
went straight to the bar and closed it... went to work then the bar and closed
it, etc. etc. I didn't talk to ANYONE unnecessarily anywhere (mostly my bartender
in order to keep the drinks coming). I did this for virtually a whole year until a
barmaid took me home and seduced me (she snuck up on me, I SWEAR -- I had
even lost any interest in that). Without getting crude (I have a great line for
what happened, but I'll spare the more sensitive), I was reminded that there IS
a reason for living. I stopped drinking to escape, yet didn't have to quit as I hadn't
become an alcoholic. I went back to drinking "normally" for fun.
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I still drink -- though nowadays a "night of hard drinking" involves a SECOND
glass of red wine.
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What I have never understood is the people who become real assholes when
they drink -- what would cause them to think THAT was either fun or an
escape? I think that hearing that I had been a real jerk would cause me to
exert a LOT of effort into an attempt to stop BEING a jerk.
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Though alcoholism probably explains some of that, though in my own
experience (some as a bartender), most alcoholics aren't jerks. I'm talking about
people who become abusive or violent or who make it just plain difficult to be
anywhere NEAR them.
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