Lounge might be the wrong place but I need to unload [View all]

[Bertha Venation]

and the Lounge is filled with friendlies.

For many years I've been in denial about the state of my health. To the point where, if asked on a doctor's form to gauge the state of my health, I mark "good."

I had a come-to-jesus meeting with myself last night and this morning. I forced myself to face the fact that my health is not good. I have diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, and a couple of significant psych diagnoses. I take a handful of pills twice a day. And FFS, I'm 130 pounds overweight.

Good health, indeed.

I've made few serious attempts to lose weight since diabetes diagnosis ten years ago, but when I have truly tried, I've done well for a few weeks, then failed. What worked the best was counting carbs. Writing down everything I eat and counting up the carbs. Doc says three meals and three snacks per day. Meals 30-45 carbs, snacks 15-20 carbs.

I have to write it, with ink on paper. I can't do it online. If I do, I make the entries and they're gone; I don't look back at them. I need to look daily at what I've written - at what I've eaten. If it's written in a notebook I keep at hand, it will be better.

I'll take advice if you have any.

I'm 52 years old, and I want to see my wife, 11 years older, through old age. I want to grow old with her. I want to have many, many years together. I won't have that if I continue to ruin my health.