I lost my husband seven years ago. The best advice I can give you is to let yourself feel what you're feeling. I tried to "be strong"...Mike had been sick, we had a great, long marriage, etc., so I didn't let myself truly mourn in the immediate aftermath. And about two weeks in I came as close to a breakdown as I've ever been. So don't deny yourself. If you feel yourself tearing up, let it happen. Your true friends will understand and support you. No one else matters. Also, soon (if you haven't already) you'll hit the "anger" stage...let it work for you. Slam doors, kick boxes, yell. Let it out. It helps. And above all, know this. This is not something you "get over", but you do get through it, and you do get passed it. Let time play out. He'll always be in your heart, and he'll always be with you. Peace. 
This helped me through...I hope it helps you.
Gone From My Sight
Henry Van Dyke
I am standing upon the seashore. A ship, at my side,
spreads her white sails to the moving breeze and starts
for the blue ocean. She is an object of beauty and strength.
I stand and watch her until, at length, she hangs like a speck
of white cloud just where the sea and sky come to mingle with each other.
Then, someone at my side says, "There, she is gone."
Gone where?
Gone from my sight. That is all. She is just as large in mast,
hull and spar as she was when she left my side.
And, she is just as able to bear her load of living freight to her destined port.
Her diminished size is in me -- not in her.
And, just at the moment when someone says, "There, she is gone,"
there are other eyes watching her coming, and other voices
ready to take up the glad shout, "Here she comes!"
And that is dying...
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