Very close to death experiences - what would your last words have been?

[Sedona]

13. I almost died as a result of an unfortunate mixture of cleaning materials and poor ventilation.

The EMT kept me alive with a Bag Valve Mask for the 30 minute ambulance ride to the ER. I was wide awake and alert the whole time (just exhausted from trying to breath all day with my poisoned lungs) .

All I kept thinking was "Is this it?, "Okay I guess this is it. This is a pretty stupid fucking way to go."

No life passing before my eyes, no white light, just guilt for being so stupid to leave my three young adult daughters without a mother and what that was going to be like for them.

I obviously survived with three days in the hospital recovering but it confirmed my atheism and belief there is nothing on the "other side" besides a dirt nap.

God had nothing to do with saving me. It was the EMT that squeezed that bag about a thousand times in 30 minutes so I could make it to the hospital. I made him a nice lasagna when I recovered.

MORAL OF THE STORY: Never try to clean up animal urine with bleach on a cold rainy day (or any day for that matter). The ammonia in the urine creates a poison gas that will kill you if it has half a chance. I got help in time (barely).


Edited to add......Recalling it now, I had the work pretty hard to keep breathing too on that long ride too, it was definitely my love for my girls that kept me going.