Like Doctor Who said, "I'm a very dangerous fellow when I don't know what I'm doing."
You don't even want to know some of the horrors I've seen when I've messed with time.
Let's just say there is no "before" or "after." There's only now.
Things go very wrong when I obsess about the befores and afters. I've got more than enough OCD about other things.
Buckaroo Banzai summed it up pretty well.
Hey, hey, hey. Don't be mean. We don't have to be mean because, remember, no matter where you go, there you are.
That includes don't be mean to yourself.
It's probably a Zen thing but I haven't gone there.
I do think quite a bit about religion. When I was a kid my mom was a Jehovah's Witness. That probably messed me up some, but it also made me more resistant to social pressure. I was the weird kid sitting out the flag salute. Go fuck off, you worshipers of false idols!
My mom got kicked out of the Witnesses because she couldn't stay out of politics and then we were Quakers.
In time I reverted back to the traditional family faiths of fiercely intellectual pacifist Social Justice Warrior Christianity but that's not the foundation of my daily existence, I'm not someone who expects Christ to carry me through the rough spots and eventually on "into the light," and I don't pay any mind to people calling me a heretic.
Look, you Evangelical Christians, don't talk to me about a personal relationship with God. I've got voices in my head and shut them up with meds. If some of those voices are God, well that's a bummer. He picked the wrong way to talk to me. My dead grandmas are in there too, and some mean voices as well. I ignore them all. My conscience lives elsewhere, in my actions. There ain't no Jiminy Cricket sitting on my shoulder and if there was I'd put him outside to fend for himself. Possibly by the bird feeder.
Anyways, the entire universe is written in light. Mass is energy, energy is mass, and what it all looks like is a matter of perspective. You are already part of that light and perspectives change.
I'm certainly not the same person I was twenty years ago when I first started posting on DU. Just by being my perspective has changed, sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. That's how time works.
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