Finally hit a breaking point today

[XanaDUer2]

15. I'm trying not to constantly reach out

In always the one reaching out first. I'm craving some type of positive attention from relatives and friends. Its pathetic. Petty, but I used to wish everyone happy birthday on fb. Ones who didn't ever wish me HB. so, i decided to stop. I did get a lot of HBs this year, tho. I was shocked.

I have to just accept no one gives a shit. I stopped communicating with my loser sister screaming at me how to live my life. A bossy loser. If she had her shit together, i might listen more to her. I reached out the other day. Crickets. So, i just have to stop being so needy and realize I'm alone, basically. So, if no one thanks you, stop killingyourself. Fuck it. I might send a nasty email too. Not worth it if no one can even muster up a thank you.