I'm waiting for a call from the vet right now, to help me decide whether to say goodbye to my almost 17-year-old cat, the best cat in the world. He has cancer of the nasal cavity and over the weekend he really started to go downhill. He's still alert but I can tell he's not feeling very well - he barely eats (I don't think he can breathe very well while he tries to eat) and when he's not sleeping he's walking around anxiously, meowing as if he wanted me to do something other than feed him. Do I let him go farther downhill and gradually start to suffer more, or do I let him go now even if he could survive for another week or so? He's at the vet's office now, and unfortunately their COVID-19 procedures don't allow me to be there with him. I already said goodbye earlier in the car, waiting for them to take him in, and since he's friendly, loves people and isn't afraid of them he won't be scared without me there, but I'd like one more goodbye, for me if not for him.
I hope your feral guy passes peacefully, and I understand completely that you are reluctant to make his last hours frightening instead of peaceful.
It's so hard.