African American
Showing Original Post only (View all)I literally went to bed stressed out and crying last night [View all]
For the African American Group.
All of my life my parents told me I was special. My momma especially told me that I should always share my opinion because one day its going to be important. Now that I am an adult in my forties, I literary feel worthless for the first time in my life. I became a liberal because I was taught growing up that liberals look out for each other.
I was taught that liberals will have your back when it comes to protecting your rights. I was taught that they will make sure nothing happens to you. That's not been the case I been going through for the last eight months. I've been seeing a side of liberals that make me cringe and make me question why I am in this party. I have been a life long liberal since December 7th, 1973. My grandfather told me son, the democrats always had our backs which is why I was a democrat and when you get old enough I want you to join the party and help keep fighting to make things better.
My grandfather once told me son, the world will get better for you when you grow up and become a man. People will respect and honor you. I want you to believe that. Now, some of you are going to laugh at me but from time to time my grandfather's spirit will come and talk to me through my dreams. He will do that especially when I'm troubled as I am right now. We would often sit by our old house because that's the happiest time of my life and we would talk.
Last night was one of those nights where I needed his counsel. I told him, I'm not happy. He tells me yes buddy, I know. You are questioning why you should give your loyalty to a party that doesn't value your opinion. I told him that since I made it be known that I am for Hillary Clinton, I've had liberals come at me and tell me that I have no right to my opinion. I've been told that I actually owe a certain candidate my vote and that I should know my place. I even heard a liberal yesterday say that as a black people if we vote for anyone other than his candidate and I shall not mention names that our votes should not count and that we're voting out of guilt. I never felt so disrespected in my life.
I have liberals telling me that I'm worthless and that I need to know my place and it makes me feel like I'm being talked down on and judged. Heck, I even had liberals who I admire and respect, famous liberals question me on why I do not let people who are hostile towards me online spew their stuff at me that blocking them makes me the extreme one. Some days, social media makes me scream and it makes me seriously want to take up drinking. That got a laugh from him and if you knew my grandfather, he rarely laughs. He told me to take it to heart that I shouldn't let people like this get me down that jerks are going to be jerks. I never knew my grandfather was so wise for someone who had no idea what the internet was when he was alive. He left me with this final thought before my dream ended. He told me to rely on my online friends. I will know who has my back if I tell them the pressure and the disrespect that I go through on a daily basis. Was he right? Am I crazy for feeling this way?