Then why don't you have any doctrine you can show me? Written down?
Are you afraid of your beliefs being known? Why can't you state them?
Isn't your faith strong enough that you can say "I believe, A,B,C,D" unapologetically? Most church services have a part called confession of faith, which is usually the Apostles' Creed or the Nicene Creed, at least among Protestants. Why can't you state that you believe one of those creeds, for example, or some statement of faith that is explicatory?
Does the congregation or denomination say "Officially we believe A" but by word of mouth, unofficially they believe B which is not compatible with belief A? Does that mean that when they are reciting the Apostles' Creed or the Nicene Creed, that they don't believe it?
This sounds like the situation of 99% of American women using contraception at some point in their life and that includes Catholics, who I believe are committing a mortal sin if they use it? And are not allowed to take communion? And American women have decided their sex lives are none of the Pope's business?