Am I really not finding help

[gwheezie]

3. Thank you for your response

I work for the hospital where my husband died and it's their hospice/bereavement services. The closest city to me is richmond va. When I called eap they referred me back to hospice. At this point I really don't think those services can help much because my contact with them has just made me madder. I think at this point I would do better with services outside where I work I don't trust them. I'm not planning on sueing anyone 2 doctors missed the cancer diagnosis within 2 months of my husbands death. But since it was probably too late anyway at that point the only thing that could have improved his life would have been effective pain management. But when I did talk to eap she was pretty defensive.
We were together 30 years. We held onto a big secret for all that time. He had a lot of misery over his secret and I never had the guts to tell him I knew until the day before he died and I don't know if he heard me.