I grew up being raped, starting from the age of five, because "that's what girls are for, and that's what men do to girls."
I grew up awake all night after each rape session, in too much pain to sleep.
I grew to be a loner, convinced that there was something dirty about me that caused the abuse. To this day, my abusers don't feel any shame, that I can see. But I do. I feel shame for being born female.
I was raped when I served in the Army, by a fellow Officer I was foolish enough to trust. More trauma.
On dates, I have had men force anal sex on me when I was not prepared for it, cum in my eyes on purpose before I could jerk away, and I can't even describe how many times I've heard, "don't be a pussy" or "she probably liked it" when men speak of rape, even rape of children.
It's everywhere. I can't avoid the culture I live in.
I am not offended or frightened by sex or naked people.
I am offended by and frightened of rape and abuse and a culture that seems to condone it and celebrate it in some types of porn and some advertising (like the link that talks about models sporting black eyes, split lips as "fashion."
And this is the last I will speak with you about this issue.
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