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55. Not getting the Message

Last edited Tue May 12, 2026, 01:51 PM - Edit history (5)

This is my last post because I have to restart my life.

I feel the Indian govt is not getting the message. There was a time last week when I was hopeful that this may just fizzle out. After yesterday and today I do not think complaints are optional.
A decent state would recognize the horrifying level of mining, extraction, malpractice, fraud, misconduct and harassment by complete strangers has occurred on this street between 2012 and the present.

This isn’t a phone or a computer. You cannot just barge in and install apps with lazy metaphoric leaps of logic.

I have not had any mental illness. I had a breakdown that was justified. It was worsened at a hospital where they asked questions so ridiculous and entirely seriously that I descended into learned helplessness.

One of them (this one rankled the most because it was so outrageously stupid and I really feel for people whose brains are embattled and this type of fucking idiot is who handles them): “Do you think you have superpowers?”

It showed a contemptuous and not very bright person’s understanding of what mental illness must be like. I was looking at this brainless woman and wondering, “seriously? This is how you think mental illness works. You are a fucking incompetent idiot who should never work in that area ever again.”

Had she asked “Do you think you may never work in science again and have to pack up and go home because you are completely unfit for science now you have provided this unbeautiful high def sample?” That would have been helpful. She could have said. “Look that’s ott and you can still work and function”. It would not have worked. But it would not have done more harm. The shrink they had me see was far superior.
I don’t have any mental illness, but I do understand what a healthy state and a warped state are now.
I want to put this behind me permanently complaint filing aside.

I am suspicious by now about any activity overtly that is outside my field. Might give the wrong ideas to crackpots. But I had a great grandmother who was schizophrenic. She had a disturbed audiovisual response.

That would make you feel nuts.
But to be an educated doctor at a high profile institution and so mediocre a fraud that - I have rarely seen doctors in physical health that clunky. So it means that this is a bottom of the class type who wants to make money and that’s who thrives at Stanford Psychiatry.
Good psychiatrists are not contemptuous. They listen. It is the damn human brain. And you have a checklist and what? Next pretend that it is all a game.

This is a problem. When you have people that incompetent in area like that and you just allow them to hack away. This is why I am filing allegations of psychiatric malpractice. And pointing out that this is at least unconscious malice. That it is bad for business to not be in bed with rapacious data mining. Good The Woebot shut down.

This can go one of two ways. The Indian govt cannot just maltreat me for 14 years and then gloss over it. Its like Domino’s Effect. There are unknown people who will be affected if this nuisance continues.


Otoh if this entire crowd is kept in quarantine for complaint filing by me and shutdown and warned. That won’t stop complaints. I am filing them any which way.
But it will ensure that from here on this will be smoother. I am not scary or stupid or

This screen between is a pain because you first notice threatening - scary or scary stupid avarice, overconfidence, inversion, theft.

I am filing complaints and as this atrocious thing has left one cancer patient dead and cost me 15 years almost by now, it should be shut off for traffic and allowed to return to its old sleepy town state.
If you continue this it will escalate.

What I hate doing is enduring a scary charlatan at the expense of costing someone decent. When I was KO, I would erupt in anger but be too beaten down at other times for much more than sullen brooding about creeps.
Before she died of cancer all my poor mother heard about was the creeps. The poor woman heard me rant about creeps non stop and then she left me. Those are not connected.
I cope with gallows humor.

Yesterday as I was looking at the creeps with loathing this girl who seemed nice smiled at me and I glowered. This has to stop. I am laughing at the creeps not with them.

But seriously these brainless hacks have to never again... The city is full of suckers and such.
I laugh that I may not weep. I have stuck with stupidity for so long I have given up.
Have pity on me and if you have any brains please stop this rapacious stupid crap and go annoy just about anyone else.
If I recover and am functional that’s better for society than forcing this obviously fraudulent, second rate, pseudoscientific garbage that is an embarrassment.

Tech is not science. I am writing a paper..I have done more with my KO brain than old super powers did ever and I bet she gets paid a tonne and ruins lots of people’s lives.
This has really drained me. Idiocracy to the hilt.

This society sucks. Ignoring climate scientists like Peter Kalmus, harassing Dr Fauci and feting an ass like Pinker. And Haidt. Whose wife makes menstrual art. A match made in Idiocracy.

I am terrified of stupid people. Please shut this down and I can give them the address of a very nice sexual harasser two hours away. They can all go there and star in a trauma porn meninist flick over there.
This won’t end well as is. Don’t keep doing this.

I am not an influencer or plant. I am actually the average scientist and I will entirely credible in the setting I am intended for.
Who doesn’t have some drivel about them?

But my job is the worst fit for all this. The highly competent or some sort of crowd I want a restraining order against are the only kinds of people in this. I am a third category. I don’t want next level rubbish tech.
This has to be aborted. I am entirely sure of that. It is not worth spinning out for another minute. It sucks away all my real resources.

Total charlatanry..
I don’t how to make it clearer that if you continue to use malpractice to justify encroachment and harassment, if the internet has rotted your brain to the point where you cannot tell a threat, kayfabe from a white collar professional who has seen enough and is telling you directly as scientists used to tell me when I was a greenhorn (as distinct from green) that this or that is bs.
This is bullshit. Don’t keep doing this.
This is not a religious place or a sweatshop. It is a quiet residential area and I will make sure to target complaints so only sleazy frauds at the top get blamed. People like Nadella, Pichai, Ambani or small creepy companies.
The point of being a ceo is the buck stops with you!
I have loyalty to my colleagues because they are not frauds (loyalty sounds corny but well what it connotes..sounds lame and histrionic..this was all embarrassing. It is those Si Valley creeps. They have money but they are embarrassing and nice try btw - hoping the biggest loser in science would fall for it. I can afford this bullshit less than people who can buffer such pointless drivel. When was the last time these guys had any product you could get people to use withour extortion? It is not whitehatting etc. It is just corruption, misogyny and parasitism but subtle.)


I cannot afford loss of another day. So if this is not entirely gone - it is not my problem figuring out how. But while I do know it will fail, this time I don’t want it to take me and what time and resources I have with it.

I don’t bother with tired left right scripts that work for corrupt types. What is new then?
I am not going to take this Malcolm Gladwell of tech type seriously ever.
Everything I hate - charlatanry, breaking things, flattering turds and hurting the feelings of nice people. All of that is professional or social behavior I despise,
It doesn’t matter if someone has no power and you can get away with hurting their feelings. Its still not nice, but with cameras on its all show and that destroys work and decency.
If you need to be monitored to work hard, not be a pervert yeah that is who should be super powers’ patient. Battle of giants..that’s at least some mutualist scam.

This really is destroying society and people. Zitron and Yasha have talked about it as has Coleman Spillde.
Let those of us in India or the US who are not awful people lead our lives sans internet at this scale and “inevitable” drivel and so on.
A control spot.
No hogging. They can have their hells. Aggressive…that’s the problem. And riling people up. It’s like you want misery to be empty but fake moral. It is bad faith.
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Final Edit: I would really like to start work again tomorrow. I am filing complaints about everything that happened here in India, whether it is portrayed in a progressive light or as it actually was - a completely misogynistic assault on my rights. Just now another one of these malicious guys drove by.
I am requesting the Indian to shut this down and I will file all applicable misconduct, malpractice and harassment allegations the day I can so that malicious shit like this is not purveyed as about
I am a Nimby. This should be a control spot with low tech. I am not a Luddite, but I would be one of those people who prefer a flip phone in this scenario over a smart phone.
I like birdsong. It is political abuse of psychiatry to force this and head churning social experimentation. I cannot decode these metaphors and games.
My trust is already strained to the hilt and the last thing I want is.. It is all bad faith.
I cooperate in normal ways like normal peole
Another malicious vehicle.

Maybe it is no big deal to these assholes. But they were responsible for my mom’s death and this is and was torture and it is past time the state intervenes and shuts this down. And sets an eta to honor my RTI and allow me to file complaints and make it clear that it is violation of women’s rights.
Billionaires have their way of circumventing the law and this is outnumbering people with sheer mob might. And saying that old people should have fewer votes, the children should have fewer votes.
My patience is strained to the hilt


I would request the support of the Indian central govt and not in a creepy, desperate social science experiment where again all my progress over the last 15 years are wiped out for this worthless low rent Facebook like trash
Go take over Ambani’s or Adani’s apartments. Don’t destroy a green space in an urban jungle and

I don’t find it cute and like students learning but creepy and parasitic. Except my best friend from grad student (i trust my ex husband ans my main mentor but they are white and American and would not understand India. If you are Indian American or an NRI you have no business deciding for me.

I remain on the left. But left doesn’t mean this bs.
I have realized how important personality is to not perceptions but the realities of politics.
This would be a disaster if not shut down and deleted immediately in India and this road shut off for all but minimal traffic given the horrifying extractive, non consensual torture of the last 15 years.
This is why Facebook should never be allowed to bring its disgusting unmoderated ways into the real world.
I am filing allegations of stalking, harassment ans misogyny against the local hospitals, any schools or press/


I choose who or what I work with. I am a free woman. By best friend is the closest person who can consent on my behalf were I smeared as incapacitated when it is the brain damage of just enough info to destroy one’s peace of mind and no more.
I am not going nuts on the perpetrators. But some serious complaints with future professional and other repercussions for all participants I found particularly malicious is a minimum.
There is a lot of misogyny in this. I am no Karen or girlboss. But this was callous and spiteful in the extreme.
To harass someone for 5 years as they are recovering from the death
Yeah in sheer numbers I cannot beat you worldwide misery wise in a world with such stark inequality and this much war, religious indoctrination and bad science breaking the limits of l growth by turning me and my family into a milch cows for substandard trash and trying to slander us (probably). I don’t need to see it. I already know it is trash and I am filing complaints.

But unlike the genuinely noxious local misogynists of this state and their enablers I will be restrained and minimal. I am on the left but I don’t but a subset of the most brainless and annoying Indian left.
I watched a movie called “I am not okay” and those guys remind me of that or the central character in “Beef Season 1”. Empty and needing a cause or a gripe.
I have seen real activists who want things to get better. This is greed and smash and grab or some sort of deep emptiness or outdated narratives based on lack of family planning, bullshit jobs as development, no regard for environment, Yimbyism.
You don’t know the people I deal with. This is not the poor or any religious minority btw.
I know the type well.


I am well to the left and I don’t like “sensible” people like The Atlantic or Jay Kaspian Kang.
But I do like the eye of a canny conservative sometimes. Richmal Crompton or Herman Wouk come to mind. It is not political.
It is like my own science profs not of the SFI or MiT Media Lab bullshitter type.

The type of liberal or left science teacher of the right kind who can see through bs.
A left without such people will have to listen to conservative frauds like those Welcome creeps being “sensible”.

This type of “left” is like the character Barney Greenwald caricatured in the Caine Mutiny. The sort of bogus pretentious marxist (Freddie DeBoer, Leighton Woodhouse, Casey Phillips etc come to mind) who is perfect for total frauds like Pinker, Haidt or Suhel Seth (a creep I was just watching on tv).
I think they should all fight to death.


I have mixed feelings about my own “alignment” with Captain Queeg (ffs..better than Trump I suppose..I identify a lot with Trump..mostly the lack of knowledge and skills, but I would like to change that).

But if I cooperated here in India it would not be with some random. A billion people but among unknown people I can think of 3 people (with Madhav Gadgil gone) who struck me as decent: Rohit Chopra, Hemanth Kappanna and Tejas Thackeray.
I am only middleclass and I cannot afford this. It was one giant scam. This would reinforce the dimwitted paranoias of crackpots who would all see left or right drivel. I see mercenary tech cos and a set of fraudulent humans and no.


I like the Current Affairs and Yasha Levine left. Well I like Nathan Robinson, Alex Skopic, Stephen Prager, Ciara Moloney, Sam Miller Macdonald, Briahna Joy Gray and Marina Bolotnikova (minus Vox). But they aren’t even local. Deb Olin Unferth writes for something else.
A world of 8 billion people and I find a few who make any sense outside science and medicine.

Adam Becker gets it:

https://arstechnica.com/culture/2025/04/youre-not-going-to-mars-and-you-wont-live-forever-exploding-silicon-valleys-ideology/

This experiment was a crass failure and it is trying to break the limits of growth, denial of overpopulation and this crass new industry of influencers and other people with in data or ai with no real jobs.

I would request the Indian central govt and rhe new state govt to shut this down and cordon ofg this street and space for further encroachment and end this Black Mirror’s crocodile.
These are my break dates: Dec 2011- May 12, 2026. I am recovered and I will finish this paper and recover my health and carefully and deliberatively file all applicable complaints the day I can. I am not trigger happy.
I had mostly wanted to let it go because it is so lame. But one person is dead and I lost 15 years come December 2026. May 31, 2027 is my self set deadline and I want to switch to work mode.
This is entirely illicit and not in my head and I am filing complaints
I request the Indian govt to end this immediately and support a citizen over scammy tech companies and various misogynistic Uriah Heeps. For all his compassion Dickens distinguished Uriah Heep from most of the struggling people he wrote about with affection.
Too see humans as a monolith is not lack of bigotry.
I don’t care about what the right believes though it would be nice if conservatives were saner about the role of religion and regulation and science and above all environmental issues and if the left would kick out outdated dogma and address overpopulation/population explosion instead of ignoring it and mining the earth and people like me and my mom more and more and more.
I am asking you seriously to please shut this down.
I can’t make you and ignore the hyperbole from earlier posts..shitposting. But it is not right.
Please don’t do this.
Thanks.

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This was an extremely unpleasant period and with just trickle down infonomics and what felt like a constant interrogation. My last workplace was super aggressive and after that isolation, bullying and slander, it is okay. It would be petty I guess..whatever.
But then years of this gaslighting and harassment here. I usually follow Current Affairs, DU (though this my last post because I like reading but not commenting. I prefer to never stray outside my field except donations or ..Support Population Balance! And Farm Sanctuary and the Humane League!), Salon Mag (Troy Farah and Chauncey DeVega mainly and many of their other writers-Spillde, MacFarland), Yasha Levine, Ed Zitron, Matt Stoller and Lucien Greaves. I will stick to donations mostly.
But I recently added The Forward/Arno Rosenfeld to the roster because they are one of the least judgemental magazines I register these days as someone wearied by constant interrogation and criticism and dismissal for not having a cultish affiliation to..I am anti-war and I care deeply about science…But it is impossible to coexist with the rot-the humans behind the ai from Dec 2011 to now.
These pieces are kinda soothing in these war torn times when a segment of the “left” with no connection to anything and no stake appears to just like to rile all sides up, Influencers I think. Yasha pointed it out and I .yeah it is an unequal society but harassing “teh libs” from the left is not righteous:
https://forward.com/culture/823984/interfaith-calligraphy-muslim-jewish/

https://forward.com/news/819244/future-is-peace-aziz-abu-sarah-maoz-inon/

It reminded me of this:

https://www.currentaffairs.org/news/bitter-root

A lot of people of all races, religions etc are just trying to get by you know:

https://www.salon.com/2026/05/12/trying-to-heal-democracy-one-conversation-at-a-time/
Unfortunately no one takes climate change seriously or our other numerous ecological crises. It is my last post outside my field. I like to follow strict rules once I switch back into professional drag:

https://www.currentaffairs.org/news/staring-at-the-pointing-hand

https://www.christopherketcham.com/

It is not as if it is not a strain on both sides when influencers bully people into behaving like them - loud, noisy, indelicate. People are different. A subset of the vociferous are legitimate activists who will go on to make a difference. The others will have been the most obnoxious and then go work at MacKinsey while saying “I used to be left and then i learnt”. Oh okay so you used to be a jerk claiming that was left and now pragmatic.
It is personality and just straining/goading quiet people is hideous.
I used to fake a thick skin to get by. I cannot anymore. Too jarring.
I am skeptical a lot. Including of myself re getting stuff together and this was a huge strain. I appreciate my mentors’ patience with me. And I will try now. But I am sick of all this and filing complaints.

I want some goddam peace and quiet..It is those damn influencers. Social media and a lot of the net is a failure and a nuisance. Time to quit while behind..