Not Heidi
Not Heidi's JournalI'm writing a volume of memoirs
. . . which I fully intend to publish. Thing is, I don't know the first steps toward getting published.
Do you know the steps? I'd appreciate some ideas or advice.
Thank you so much.
Are you a published author? I need advice.
I've got a good start on my memoirs (34 pages complete) but I don't know the first thing about getting a book published.
Can anyone give me steps, pointers, ideas, etc.? I really don't know the first thing to do. If you can offer any assistance, I will be eternally grateful.
thinking of visiting my old church for a Sunday service
My grandma took me to Vacation Bible School, where I was "saved" at age six. The church of my childhood was Huntington Valley Baptist Church in Fountain Valley, CA.
The last time I was in that church was just before I left for Los Angeles Baptist College in 1981.
I might do this because I'm curious. The church's name hasn't changed, but have the sanctuary and service changed at all? I wonder.
If I go, I'll sing with the congregation. Singing is the only thing I miss about church. But I won't pray, or say "amen," or put anything into the plate, and I definitely won't take communion.
No, I'm an avowed atheist. Curious, yes, but not susceptible to re-conversion.
Your thoughts?
Link: http://www.huntingtonvalleybaptistchurch.com/
(I see from their website that they no longer have a choir loft . . . pity.)
tomorrow: my first ECT treatment
(ECT: electro-convulsive therapy)
My current dance with extreme depression started in November, when our lease wasn't renewed and we had two months to get out - and to come up with apx $10k moving expenses. Thanks to my sister's pleading (and appealing to the landlord's common sense), we got a year's extension. But the depression brought on by that instant stress and anxiety has lingered - in fact it's grown worse. Far worse. I haven't been this depressed since my first mental health crisis put me in the hospital almost 37 years ago.
I had been begging my psychiatrist, in every appointment since November, to change my meds to something stronger. She put me off month after month, seeming to me to be overly cautious. But at my last appointment she reminded me that we've discussed ECT, which has a good track record with depression that's resistant to other treatments.
Tomorrow is my first treatment, and I'm very nervous. Almost scared.
If you've had ECT, please tell me from your experience what I can expect. Thank you.
Do you have any scary experience with guns?
I ask because I've been writing about my first girlfriend, who turned into a stalker and loon and, once I'd convinced her that we were truly over, held a gun to my head.
Just wondering if I'm alone.
I was going to post this in the Lounge, but I thought this group would be more appropriate.
Have you watched The Crown on Netflix?
I'm finding it fascinating. The performances are wonderful. Claire Foy won two Emmys for portraying the Queen - she was splendid. John Lithgow won one as Winston Churchill - completely unrecognizable as himself. Gillian Anderson as Margaret Thatcher was great (also unrecognizable as herself). Olivia Colman as the Queen is fantastic. Excellent performances across the board.
write about a funny or amusing date you went on
Here's mine.
It was my second date with Kay. We had dinner at her house, then sat on a bench in her backyard (it was a beautiful So Cal night). We talked, we necked, and things began to get . . . warm. I had to put on the brakes because I'd been having menstrual problems and was in the throes of these problems. She was so bummed (as was I). I said, "and I'll bet you changed the sheets and shaved your legs, didn't you?" She cracked up, probably disturbed the neighbors.
The other funny thing about this date was that as we sat outside, ants got into my boot (injured ankle). Ha ha ha.
Please tell us about a funny or amusing date. 
This constitutes peddling?
Jesus. I asked a question. If you don't like it, ask for a jury.
Hey. Forgive me.
Did I not explain how I happened upon this? No offense intended. I just asked a question. OK? Jesus.
Profile Information
Name: K.J. HeidebrechtGender: Female
Hometown: Huntington Beach, CA
Home country: United States
Current location: Fountain Valley, CA
Member since: Wed Jun 19, 2019, 03:15 PM
Number of posts: 1,338
