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NurseJackie

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10. Not raped or sexually assaulted... but physically abused and mentally abused by my first husband.

Reply to LandOfHopeAndDreams (Original post)

Thu Sep 27, 2018, 07:28 PM

Sep 2018

It was YEARS before I could talk about the specifics. And even today, I avoid it, I suppress it. Even after the end of our short marriage (with no kids) the memory of him tormented me, haunted me, and it was baggage that I carried with me for years. Nightmares of him beating me would wake me up weekly for YEARS! Now that he's dead (bastard drank himself to death) I have some closure and subconscious belief/understanding that he can't hurt me again... and the dreams stopped.

Not everyone understands or appreciates how hard it is to recover from assault or abuse.

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Let This Be A Lesson To Anyone Who Has Been Abused [View all] LandOfHopeAndDreams Sep 2018 OP

This why many of us have been silent. redstatebluegirl Sep 2018 #1

Me too. a la izquierda Sep 2018 #5

I was 20. redstatebluegirl Sep 2018 #6

Rape/sexual assault has now been normalized :( maryellen99 Sep 2018 #2

Not only that, Lindsay Graham plans to turn it into a weapon. Initech Sep 2018 #7

He's the next Kevin Spacey and I don't mean acting nt maryellen99 Sep 2018 #8

I wouldn't be surprised if he has actual skeletons in his closet! Initech Sep 2018 #9

I came forward and testified. I do not regret it. backtoblue Sep 2018 #3

I completely and emphatically disagree with your conclusion. ZZenith Sep 2018 #4

Not raped or sexually assaulted... but physically abused and mentally abused by my first husband. NurseJackie Sep 2018 #10

Yeah. I already know how bad it is. Solly Mack Sep 2018 #11

I Wasn't Expecting That LandOfHopeAndDreams Sep 2018 #12