If he's as sick as I think he is,

[Boomer]

57. I wish this was true

You paint an evocative image of a Trump haunted by his insecurities and failings, but you're projecting your own normalcy onto a narcissistic psychopath.

Narcissism alone might allow for your scenario, but there's some pretty persuasive documentation that Trump's narcissism is only a subset of his psychopathology. Psychopaths don't experience fear, which is one reason they're so reckless and vindictive. And that lack of fear in the face of obviously fearful circumstances makes it difficult for people to understand them and their behavior. It strikes us as irrational and self-destructive, because we fear consequences; psychopaths do not.

So I've resigned myself to the fact that Trump is not suffering, at least not in way that I would find satisfyingly karmic.