I feel more confident today than I did 4 years ago. [View all]

[Drunken Irishman]

I'm sure it's the exact opposite for a lot, if not most, of you.

But I was under no disillusions about the election. I knew it was dangerously close and that alone made Trump winning a real possibility.

I saw a lot of anti-Hillary hate out there. My twitter feed was constantly a mix of, "both are just awful" and it felt like many on the left were never going to come around to voting Hillary.

I recall watching the convention and seeing Bernie supporters openly jeer speakers and I got worried. I really started thinking this wasn't going the way it needed. It felt like a reverse 2012, where all the breaks were going against us.

It just did not feel like we had the good vibes on our side.

I felt like that for almost every day of every week from late spring until October that things were not right.

Then there was a brief moment in October, when the Access Hollywood tape dropped, where I felt some hope things would finally break our way.

It was fleeting.

A couple weeks later and the Comey Letter dropped.

I posted on DU as it did that Clinton's chances of winning were in serious doubt. It was the first time I had really openly, at least here, contemplated her losing. A lot pushed back, but a lot didn't. That made me feel uneasy even more.

Like I said, this was the reverse 2012 for me. Really, most that election, I thought Obama would win. Only once, in October, after his first debate performance, did I have doubts.

It was fleeting. By the second debate, I was cautious but comfortable.

So, 2020 feels different.

It feels like the good vibes are working with us now.

I don't see nearly as many people saying both candidates are awful. The media, now that they don't have Hillary to pick on, isn't out there pushing bullshit conspiracies about their health or playing out of context remarks or taking Trump like a joke candidate instead of a serious one.

Look, we can still lose this. A month in a campaign is an eternity, let alone four. I expect some dirty shit from Trump in the coming months.

But I don't feel the sense of dread like I did almost every moment of the 2016 campaign. Instead, I feel hope and I'm going to do everything I can to channel that hope into getting Biden elected in November.