I'm struggling.

[Hortensis]

135. Take a vacation from politics and cut screen news out of your life.

Seriously.

It sounds like you're doing a lot of good things, but they're not enough to maintain mental balance and resilience while wallowing in political media's for-profit product.

Replace it with smart articles that deepen understanding of a wide range of issues. Push out fear and hopelessness and refill with the kind of genuine knowledge that doesn't "bleed" and "lead." Get out of the political moment and into the big view.

DU and cable political entertainment won't be going anywhere while you do a reality reset.

And maybe start reorienting by writing down a list of your blessings. Start with the basics, like running water and shelter you consider home, and imagine what it'd be like to not have them. But you do.

Consider getting a mood stabilizer if that doesn't help. The dumbest thing I ever did was to go through menopause without assistance for the chemical imbalances. Over two years (!) robbed of my attention span and simple ability to enjoy and be happy.