I fucking hate White People

[Solly Mack]

189. The expression of raw emotion without the ease of a buffer scares some people.

They never seem to realize that a buffer doesn't just safeguard their nurtured sensibilities, it prevents them from actually hearing everything that is being said. Like wearing ear buds - a soundtrack of pleasant tunes plays in your head - while someone is telling you something important. You can hear only so much - when you really do need to hear it without the filter. You need to hear it raw.

The constant refrains of - Yes, white privilege/supremacy has enslaved, raped, murdered, and oppressed you all with impunity, but must you yell about it? Must you express yourself so bluntly? Don't kneel. Don't march. Don't show anger. Tell us about it - gently. And never, ever, offend our "Not me" sensibilities.

Let's us tell you how to direct your pain, your frustration, your anger, your anguish, your sorrow - without ever making us feel like maybe, just maybe, our need for a buffer is part of the problem. We want to hear your pain, just not in a way that causes us offense. We don't want your raw emotions, your actual truth - we want it distilled into something more palatable. Easier to swallow.

If the whole range of raw emotions caused by structural racism were to be leveled against those who benefit from it, the roar would stun the world into silence. It would peel the flesh off the bone.


And, frankly, a white person who hasn't looked at other white people and wondered "WTF, white people!?!", then you really haven't come to terms with the ways white people have caused and continue to cause harm and have benefited and continue to benefit from the harm they cause.

It's not self-hate to recognize any of this. To feel the anger. To experience pain from it. What has been done in the name of white supremacy/privilege should cause white people pain. It should cause them to be angry at a system that propped them up (and still props them up) while oppressing others.

Saying you know it is true ain't the same as feeling it to your core. You gotta get down to the raw of it all.