Having a hard time here

[Vinca]

96. It's that time of year when all the bad things past and present seem to dominate the mind.

I'm glad you don't think you're suicidal, but somehow we've got to get you into a better mindset because you've got a life to live. Your daughter is obviously the brightest star in the sky, so maybe focus on your well being as a way to add joy to her well being. Give some thought to the marital situation and try to come to a decision about staying or going or if there's any chance for compromise with what you like and what she likes for both of you. Just waiting to die isn't a plan. I'm kind of confused about the friends issue. In one sentence you said you have too many and in the next you said you have none. Maybe you just feel like you have none at the moment. In any case, you need to find worth within yourself so you can enjoy being with yourself. I haven't really got the answers. When I'm depressed - which often happens this time of year - I have a good cry, up my dosage of Vitamin D and wait for it to pass. Coming here and talking has helped me through difficult times and I'm sure it can help you. Don't be a stranger and if you happen to get pushback on one of your views, just shrug it off. A couple of times I've gotten pissed off over a response and I just disappear for a few days until it's floated to the back of my mind. No need dwelling on stuff like that. So don't be a stranger. Talk it out with us.