I lost my job and I am pissed off.

[magical thyme]

11. Mr. D., I can understand your anger and your hurt. I suggest you call

1-800-273-8255 to discuss your plans with somebody who can help you. I don't think you really want to do what you say. I think you joined the police force because you wanted to be a force for good, because deep down you are good and want to be do good.

So I think your pain is talking when you say you want to punish people by killing their innocent children. That's not the real you, that is just your pain talking.

And I think your pain is about more than losing your job. Many people lose their jobs every day, including whistle-blowers. But they don't want to kill innocent people as a result.

So I think there is more going on than you losing your job. And the people at this number can help you figure out what is really causing your pain, and can help you fix that. You are at heart good person and I think your heart is broken. But even with your heart broken, I think you would feel terrible about deliberately causing innocents pain. And because you are at heart a good person, deliberately causing pain in others -- even those who have harmed you -- will not relieve your own pain, it will only make it much worse.

So please call this number. Here, you can use my phone. I'll sit here with you if that will help. I promise you it will make you feel better. If I'm wrong, you can always follow your plan later. But please try this first. Please let me help you.