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KatyaR

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31. I struggle with this every day of my life.

Mon Feb 18, 2013, 01:28 PM

Feb 2013

In fact, I currently find myself in the midst of the third major episode of my adult life. While I know what I need to do to work my way out, I just am not ready to acknowledge that I need to do it.

I'm tired of struggling, I'm tired on living on the edge, I'm tired of no one understanding, I'm tired of BEING TIRED. I just don't see much of a way to ever change that. At 55, your life's pretty much set.

The worst part is knowing that I'm setting myself up for a big fall, and I'm not stopping myself. I know there are so many people so much worse off than me, but that just makes me feel ever worse about myself.

Hang in there, I'm trying to do the same.

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I don't really know how to articulate this post... [View all] YoungDemCA Feb 2013 OP

Great post... NYC_SKP Feb 2013 #1

Thank you for posting this!!! RKP5637 Feb 2013 #2

Recommended. H2O Man Feb 2013 #3

"U can take comfort in the fact that things do get better, if you open yourself to that possibility" JaneyVee Feb 2013 #4

Sometimes keeping a journal will help you through the rough times. randome Feb 2013 #5

So glad that you are feeling better YoungDem Marie Marie Feb 2013 #6

I think YOU have already earned the right to like and love yourself. Demo_Chris Feb 2013 #7

Have I got a book for you!!! rainy Feb 2013 #8

Well said! patrice Feb 2013 #9

Many hugs to you. 840high Feb 2013 #10

+1000 dkf Feb 2013 #11

keep going honey. it will get beyter. this helps me roguevalley Feb 2013 #12

Keep on doing what you are doing. hay rick Feb 2013 #13

Bravo! Auntie Bush Feb 2013 #14

Wonderful, wonderful post. There's no telling who you've helped. nolabear Feb 2013 #15

great of you to speak out, YoungDemCA Skittles Feb 2013 #16

Often overly intelligent people are overly sensitive Samantha Feb 2013 #17

Thanks for sharing a story so personal and hopeful. Sometimes we forget how difficult mountain grammy Feb 2013 #18

We just keep on, and keep on and keep on.... defacto7 Feb 2013 #19

Well. For Not Knowing ProgressiveJarhead Feb 2013 #20

Feeling Good, by Burns, is a useful book RainDog Feb 2013 #21

Support Group charin Feb 2013 #22

glad youre finding that seeing someone is helpful.. iamthebandfanman Feb 2013 #23

I hear you loud and clear! Phlem Feb 2013 #24

Wow - what a wonderful, uplifting, inspiring, and comforting story! calimary Feb 2013 #25

You articulated magnificently! tavalon Feb 2013 #26

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We are blessed by your post YoungDemCA tomm2thumbs Feb 2013 #28

Stay connected, stay strong, you will blossom kairos12 Feb 2013 #29

Great post. Solly Mack Feb 2013 #30

I struggle with this every day of my life. KatyaR Feb 2013 #31

I feel you, my friend. rivegauche Feb 2013 #32

For you, YoungDemCA...for us all... OneGrassRoot Feb 2013 #33

Keep speaking out, YoungDemCA! Sissyk Feb 2013 #34

Thank you so much for sharing! meeshrox Feb 2013 #35

Wonderful post and just what I needed after last week. Thank you. sunwyn Feb 2013 #36

I think you read my mind ... thank you. Myrina Feb 2013 #37

I never post jeffrey_pdx Feb 2013 #38

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It does get better - hope you can find some help rurallib Feb 2013 #45

Hope is our strength! sheshe2 Feb 2013 #40

Thank you. Good to have you on DU. JDPriestly Feb 2013 #41

Count your blessings. Have faith in God. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. It works judesedit Feb 2013 #42

K & R !!! - Thank You For That !!! WillyT Feb 2013 #43

OMG Thank You Thank You trublu992 Feb 2013 #44

kick for truth... Blue_Tires Feb 2013 #46

Thank you for posting this Generic Brad Feb 2013 #47

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I came to the conclusion that the only thing that matters in life is happiness neffernin Feb 2013 #49

Sometimes it takes everything you've got to just put one foot in front of the other NBachers Feb 2013 #50

Disagree.. Permanut Feb 2013 #51

Thank you all for your responses to my OP! YoungDemCA Feb 2013 #52