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[Zulan]

16. My son struggles with depression and PTSD as well

I picked him up tonight from his apartment I pay for because he was having panic attack after panic attack. He is asleep on the sofa as I write this, and I have taken a day off of work to hang with him tomorrow. When I went to pick up my son tonight, he paused at the door of his apartment, weeping in frustration because he was afraid to leave his apartment. I turned to him, cracked a grin, held out my hand and said "do you trust me?". He took my hand and I led him outside.

Life is broad and wide. It's so much more than you have had a chance to experience, There are places you cannot imagine, people who you need to know, things that would make you weep with joy.

You by god do not deserve to be punished for who you are and what you are struggling to be. This is a illness, and you need the opportunity to live it. Your parents enable you? They love you, and try to do what is right, but there are no roadsigns for the parents of hurting kids. It is so hard to do the right things, to say the right things, to communicate your love.

Find a person trained in this, someone who can truly help you. Know that there are people who give a shit about you, who are interested in you, who are worried about you.

If you need counseling, go get it. Try volunteering, or holding conversations online with people, talking about subjects you are interested in. Collect coins? I will send you a few Indian heads and we can start a collection. The world is wide open!

It's easy to cheer from the sidelines, but let people help you. You are worth it. YOU are. Never doubt that. You are struggling with feeling useless, and punishing yourself. I dare you to challenge me, challenge this whole board. The people on here have seen everything, and done amazing things. we can provide perspective. whats preying on your mind? You are not superman, and nobody gets better overnight, but they do get better. they do.