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[HiPointDem]

25. no one 'deserves' it. who is judging you but yourself? i seriously doubt your parents would

feel less burdened if you were living on the streets or dead.

i'll tell you how i got out of a similar funk once; i went & volunteered, initially for just a couple of hours a week, at a charity which took used donated items and refurbished/repurposed them for resale. my initial idea was i could just do the physical/crafting work and not have to deal with people, and it would get me out of the house.

but as there were other volunteers there who were really into arts and crafts, it wound up being very easy & low-key to talk to them about the arts and crafts and refurbishing projects we were doing. and there were some delinquent kids there doing community service hours who got into it too, & i was able to teach them some techniques, which i enjoyed. so it wound up being a very congenial & healing situation.

don't go live on the streets. you don't need to punish yourself; you haven't done anything to deserve it.