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[rustydog]

50. No, I haven't lived on the streets..but in over 30 years of hospital security

I have had contact with homeless individuals and it is not an option you would want to consciously make. You live in the elements, you sleep around people with serious mental issues. You would be living in a world where you can be killed for your sleeping bag or your spare change. people have judged you once they see your unkempt appearance and once you begin to smell. (sorry, but people always comment on the stinky homeless who chose to be this way)

You seek out bathrooms in public facilities, not only to use for basic cleanliness, but as a boarding room. you sleep under bridges and overpasses, in city parks and amid briar patches for protection. You do not get to have a room to shit, shower and shave then change into clean clothing on a daily basis....

My son-in-law has social-anxiety issues and I see his struggles on a daily basis. He is hanging in there and he keeps trying. The suicide comment is concerning, that means you have considered it as an option...Suicide is not a viable option. You may not be suffering any more, but those who care (in their own way) are left with devastation.

I wish I had an answer for you my friend, I do not. But I do care and I hope you find the answers you are seeking.