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Jennicut

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78. Never lived on the street but I have had depression and self esteem issues my entire life.

Tue May 21, 2013, 12:36 PM

May 2013

I have been on multiple different meds, been suicidal, spent a few days in a psych ward in college. My parents were always there for me even when I felt like giving up. At 29 I was diagnosed as a type 1 diabetic. I had just had my second daughter. It made my depression worse at times. Sometimes I feel just want to give up dealing with my disease and just stop taking my insulin. My immune system sucks and I dwell on being so unhealthy for a 37 year old. But what honestly keeps me going the most is that my daughters are young and need their mother. I can't give up on me because it would be giving up on them. So I take my depression meds, see my multiple doctors, test my blood sugar 5 times a day and take my insulin. I have gone to phychiatrists that made me realize that maybe I am worthy of living. Don't give up, I know it is not easy but everyone deserves to live.

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This message was self-deleted by its author [View all] Locut0s May 2013 OP

I have lived in my car zerosumgame0005 May 2013 #1

I've not lived on the street but have dealt with depression. Please stay positive. I can relate to Lint Head May 2013 #2

You are so, so right. defacto7 May 2013 #4

I have. defacto7 May 2013 #3

You can't fail at life....life is just something you do. Evoman May 2013 #5

... Mnemosyne May 2013 #7

I admire you and your will power! Hope I can be that brave when I have to face something like you Lint Head May 2013 #8

Wow, that was a lot to take in. Probably the wisest post I have ever seen. Live and Learn May 2013 #12

well said and i wish you well. when my husband DesertFlower May 2013 #13

Wow thank you. I feel ashamed to feel as bad as I do when... Locut0s May 2013 #15

... OneGrassRoot May 2013 #33

Quite a post! JNelson6563 May 2013 #21

+100 HiPointDem May 2013 #23

A very wise 33-year-old at that. OneGrassRoot May 2013 #32

Thank you all for your kind words. Evoman May 2013 #37

I wish you the best, and I will keep you in my thoughts. nt msanthrope May 2013 #69

It's good to see you here, Evoman. hunter May 2013 #39

>>> Nay May 2013 #43

Thank you for sharing that wisdom. Poll_Blind May 2013 #51

I really admire you for sharing that. closeupready May 2013 #60

Excellent advice. LuvNewcastle May 2013 #74

I lived in my van for a couple months in the mid 80's. bhikkhu May 2013 #6

Down by the river? pipoman May 2013 #9

Lived in my mini-pickup with canopy for 4 months. ErikJ May 2013 #10

i'm struggling with depression right now. DesertFlower May 2013 #11

... OneGrassRoot May 2013 #31

thank you. nt DesertFlower May 2013 #59

I'm 70 & I'm tired. With the exception of 3 good friends, a nephew and a niece, virtually everyone Booster May 2013 #58

my family is all gone too except for DesertFlower May 2013 #66

I feel so much better now. I don't feel so alone after reading your reply. I was beginning to Booster May 2013 #81

so sorry about your dog. DesertFlower May 2013 #85

Sending you love and warm thoughts from New York, DF! closeupready May 2013 #61

thank you so much. nt DesertFlower May 2013 #64

You deserve no such thing. Nobody "deserves" being homeless. Live and Learn May 2013 #14

My son struggles with depression and PTSD as well Zulan May 2013 #16

wonderful reply - very insightful tomm2thumbs May 2013 #20

Thank you!... Locut0s May 2013 #24

We're on a similar hamster wheel. *hugs* I think many of us who are mentally ill still GreenPartyVoter May 2013 #29

You are welcome Zulan May 2013 #47

Jeez, what a great mom DiverDave May 2013 #27

Hey man, I am the dad. Zulan May 2013 #48

My dad was a liar and pedophile and a user of people DiverDave May 2013 #67

wow... what a loser dad. Zulan May 2013 #79

George Orwell wrote a book about it in 1933 ucrdem May 2013 #17

Does the beginning of this seem at all familiar? Spitfire of ATJ May 2013 #18

just sharing, not endorsing tomm2thumbs May 2013 #19

Look at what you have done! JNelson6563 May 2013 #22

no one 'deserves' it. who is judging you but yourself? i seriously doubt your parents would HiPointDem May 2013 #25

Thank you. many people have recommended volunteer work... Locut0s May 2013 #26

'embarrassing messes' = everyone has them. make amends where you need to & move on. they HiPointDem May 2013 #28

As a parent, I can tell you I'm pretty sure they would. Ms. Toad May 2013 #30

Ive lived on the street. bunnies May 2013 #34

Wow... TeeYiYi May 2013 #45

Thanks Tee bunnies May 2013 #72

+1000 Sissyk May 2013 #46

I wish I oculd share your experiences with some of my uncaring hateful coworkers rustydog May 2013 #55

Thanks rusty.... bunnies May 2013 #71

+100 HiPointDem May 2013 #68

This message was self-deleted by its author kentuck May 2013 #35

Yep. H2O Man May 2013 #36

Don't live on the street. panader0 May 2013 #38

It didn't work for me. hunter May 2013 #40

Drugs? Alcohol? Junkdrawer May 2013 #41

"Living on the streets" is my mental backstop, and I may be flippant about it sometimes... hunter May 2013 #42

Can you get it treated somehow? Zulan May 2013 #49

Maybe I should have been clearer, I'm "treated" now More or less... hunter May 2013 #54

Yep. It is no fun. redqueen May 2013 #44

No, I haven't lived on the streets..but in over 30 years of hospital security rustydog May 2013 #50

Seriously? You *want* to live on the street? IdaBriggs May 2013 #52

"part of me really doesn't care it seems" ... I hope this helps: Shampoobra May 2013 #53

Wish I could rec your reply to the OP. n/t FSogol May 2013 #80

If it had not been for a very nice college professor, I would have been very close liberal N proud May 2013 #56

I feel you. Is there someone you can talk to? Dash87 May 2013 #57

I'm not unlike you Cal Carpenter May 2013 #62

I assume your universal healthcare covers mental illness KamaAina May 2013 #63

I went through a few years of depression, RebelOne May 2013 #65

Yep. 7 months. Iggo May 2013 #70

What would you like to know? Lady Freedom Returns May 2013 #73

I know it's hard to see right now, but you'd be better off to stay where you are justiceischeap May 2013 #75

If you feel yourself sliding NoOneMan May 2013 #76

I think you should read Ray Bradbury's "Zen In The Art Of Writing". CJCRANE May 2013 #77

Never lived on the street but I have had depression and self esteem issues my entire life. Jennicut May 2013 #78

I'm glad you are trying so hard! JNelson6563 May 2013 #84

I've never lived on the street ohheckyeah May 2013 #82

I have never lived on the street but my best friend had to when he lost his job... Jasana May 2013 #83