I lost my mom on Saturday..........

[thecrow]

109. My sympathies are with you and your hurting heart right now...

I'm sorry for your loss.
I know the pain you are feeling... I lost both of my parents in 2011 within 5 weeks of each other.
Every day I think of them and oftentimes, I'll see or hear something and say to myself, "I have to tell Mom about this!" then realize once again, that I can't. I saved all of my voicemails from her so I can remember what her voice sounded like, though one never forgets their mother's voice. Now the pain is diminished but lies just under the surface. I don't think that the pain ever really goes away, but it gets easier to cope with. I remember the times she was so funny, or laughing, and thank her for all she did for me, and am glad I was able to be with her in her last months.... and that all the pain and indignity of her condition is over. That has helped me to let go of my own suffering, and in time, it will help you too, even though I know that you may be feeling awfully ragged emotionally right now. Hang on to the good memories and don't beat yourself up wondering what else you could have done for her. Remember her smile, her laugh, her voice and stay appreciative that you had her for as long as you did.
I wish you peace. Remember we are all here for you.