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[TorchTheWitch]

88. I tried that but still trying

That was the first thing I thought of since it saved me MANY times in the past between jobs, and I got a couple of permanent jobs out of it. The first thing I did was go straight to the three agencies I used to get plenty of work from and immediate work from and found out they no longer exist especially the one that I always got the best temp work through and did it as fast as I called. Actually, two of those places technically still exist though they've had name changes and don't do anything with office work anymore. One only hires "technical" staff, and the other only hires medical staff.

I did find about 10 other places outside the city though that do office temp placements, but every one of them told me that because I've not worked in an office environment for about a dozen years now they wouldn't be able to find anything for me, which I think is nuts... I can type, answer phones, file, etc. and back when I didn't know anything about anything when I was young I started working in office work through temp agencies to begin with. Some of them also insisted that I had to know Excel and Powerpoint or they couldn't do anything for me, which is also nuts since I've NEVER used either though ages ago I piddled with them a bit just so I had an excuse to put that on my resume.

Though I know the best places to get immediate work with an office temp placement agency is one of them that are in the city though I don't know who they are anymore since those would more likely be the ones that fill law office temp jobs which is what my resume is more geared toward anyway and where I wouldn't need Excel or Powerpoint anyway (and why I likely never used either in the past). I also couldn't even go to any of the city agencies since though at the time I probably could have afforded the gas to get there and back I couldn't possibly afford the astronomical parking fees. I don't even know how much that would cost now since I haven't had to do that for over a dozen years. Back than it was at LEAST $20 to park even 10 blocks away from the building you were going to for just an hour.

I've called some of the city agencies and emailed my resume to a couple of them but so far I still haven't been able to discover who the hell the agencies are now that supply most of the temp work force for the law firms both in and out of the city. Back when I did it, there was really just two agencies that they normally used, and one of them only supplied temp workers that were attorneys or paralegals but not any of the lower office staff. I've been trying to find a law firm locally that still gets a physical copy of the Legal Intelligencer newspaper since whoever these agencies are now would have prominent ads in it, but so far nowhere I've asked still gets the physical paper since the Legal Intelligencer is online EXCEPT for being able to see the ads. Just going through their classified section for available jobs (which is how I got permanent jobs almost exclusively back then when it wasn't another firm that wanted to steal me) I've not been able to figure out who these agencies are now as pretty much all of the help wanted ads are from the law firms wanting to hire their own selves.

I suddently just finally got the idea to just call one of the law firms I know of and even worked at before and ask what agency they use for temp placements. Monday that's another thing I need to do, but now I still don't have the money to go to them and fill out paperwork and be interviewed even if they have any interest in me at all since I've not worked in an office for so long just for the gas and that evil parking money I'll have to spend, and it just has to be a LOT hire now than when I used to have to do that.

Geez, I don't even know why I'm still looking for a job now at all since I can't see how I could keep one once I get thrown out onto the street. How do I keep going to a job with no way to go to the bathroom or shower or have a place to sleep or ANYTHING? All I know is that despite what's coming I still have to keep fighting.

This is the whole reason why I did the eviction appeal in the first place - so I could still have a roof over my head for however long I could while I got a job and earned the money to hopefully be ABLE to move somewhere else. It was either that or be physically thrown out and everything I have taken by I think the sheriff's office (everyone keeps saying the "constable" but neither the township nor the county has anyone by that title) who then sells it all at auction and KEEPS whatever money they get from my own stuff since once I'm thrown out anything left on the premises is legally considered no longer mine though at least the scumlord doesn't get it, but she could still bid on anything at the auction.

Had I not done the appeal that would have happened in roughly 15 days. It depends on how fast my scumlord ran to court and filed to have it done, and I KNOW she's likely long since already had any paperwork to file already done and with her attorney who is right around the corner from the courthouse and will immediately dispatch someone to file it. ALL she wants is to get me out of here and put some other tenant in here paying the rent so she can pay the mortgage for the house she lives in herself. That's ALL a tenant here is FOR to her. And since the amount of the rent miraculously is almost exactly what the amount of her mortgage for the house she lives in is it's no wonder why she has never spent a penny to fix a damn thing in here either ignoring problems entirely or having incompetant family members she didn't have to pay "fix" things. The more I find out about this women the more of an utterly heartless completely evil viper I find out she is. And of course, the only way I had to find out was after she already filed the eviction, and a whole lot more I never knew until after I'd already filed the appeal.

Once Wednesday, June 3rd passes without me paying the court again which I have just no more hope left to be able to do just to buy a single month to work and use whatever money I get to rent some other place and move out of here it's going to be only about 10 days or so that I'll be thrown out physically, everything I have confiscated since everything in here is considered no longer mine at that time, and I'll be on the street with nothing and nowhere to go. I'd have to use that 10 days to find a place for Yoshi if I can so he won't have to suffer being on the street with me. And I just don't have the strength to do that. He's all I have, and it would be like giving away my own child, my own body guard, my meds, my mind, my heart and my soul all rolled into one, and I just can't do it. But I'll have to somehow. Excapt that I can't even think about it without being physically sick and entirely losing my mind, so I have to stop thinking about that now.

All I can do now is just to try to keep fighting though I don't see how it will do any good anyway and try to deal with just the day to day needs to do that. It's either that or just drop dead. Ironically I'd far rather just be dead rather than keep waking up every day still stuck in this absolute hell.