the rise of suicide in middle aged white America: retirement no longer bonus, but time of struggle

[Dragonfli]

34. Facing illnesses that are only going to get worse, trying to live on $300 a month + food stamps

Being disabled and being stalled for 4 years now even tho I payed into FICA since I was 16 for SSDI and there is no doubt about my being disabled. Being in constant pain but unable to get meds because where I live (better dead than on pain meds is a motto of the state)

I see suicide as the only logical path at the moment.

The silliest thing is, I am only still alive because I worry what will happen to my dog. I don't want her put down or placed in a bad home, or more likely shot for being a dog by the police for fun when they find me.

I can say I understand at least some of these people, depending on their circumstances.
With my wife dead and no way to work and no family. I think it is a no brainer if my dog dies or I somehow find her a better place for her to live. She is not large, a youngish smart as a whip little Jack Russel Terrier.
My only reason to continue living in this poverty and pain is that sweat little dog.

And to think, just ten years ago I made a decent enough wage working with my hands and living with the most beautiful woman in the world to me.

Oh well, that's the breaks I guess,