Fat "acceptance" - from the PoV of a fat person

[demigoddess]

70. I am an overweight person, also. I might have been able to lose it

at some point but I gave birth to a severely retarded child and a lot of my job since over all of those years was to sit quietly for many hours a day. At first it was getting formula down her. It took 1 1/2 hours to get an ounce or so down her. At 2 and a half she still wasn't eating well, so she went to a special school, which meant 3 hours a day in the car, and working with her at meals, I had to sit very quietly next to her for her lesson. For an hour per meal. Then she started public school, and she would be so traumatized by the teachers, that I would have to sit and hold her for 2 hours every afternoon when she got home. The first time she learned to eat it took 2 years, the second time one year and a half, the next time, one year. After that i had to sit nearby as she ate because she choked a lot. Can't tell you how many times, I didn't know if she would be alive in a few minutes. Now she is older and it still takes an hour for her to eat a meal and I have to sit by to get her more milk, help her with another spoon or help her if she chokes. The doctor says I should eat more green vegetables, I love vegetables and eat them. But then there is the stress involved with a child like this. So I eat a cookie or something that I shouldn't. I just can't make the doctor understand. so thanks for your post, it let me get something off my chest.