Fat "acceptance" - from the PoV of a fat person

[nadine_mn]

80. Pretty much my depression and weight go hand in hand

I have a whole crapload of trauma in my past and eating was (still is) my coping skill. I engaged in a whole host of other harmful coping mechanisms, but overeating is the main one.

I went to an outpatient program for my depression and suicidal thoughts earlier this year - all of the therapists and nurses were wonderful and understanding. Then there was the psychiatrist who checked in on us patients a couple of times a week to gives us various types of meds to try. He kept telling me that some of the meds he was giving me had appetite suppression benefits - and I kept explaining to him "I don't eat because I am HUNGRY"

He looked at me like I was speaking in tongues. An alcoholic doesn't drink vodka because they are thirsty. His advice was for me to "just eat celery". The urge to smack him was strong - he said this as though it was some damn miracle cure that he just invented.

On a happy note - yes I have wonderful dogs. I usually walk them late at night to avoid other people. I haven't walked them in a while, mainly due to pain. We just lost our kitty last month - he was so sweet.