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(16,190 posts) Sat Jul 9, 2016, 12:35 AM Jul 2016

This year might break me [View all]

I've always been relatively tough. I was in foster homes from the time I was 16 months through 9 years. I wasn't an especially calm or nice child, I suppose, since my stays only lasted for more than 3 months on two occasions. After that, I spent most of my teen years hitchhiking around the country, followed by 18 years of service; following that, some decades of dealing with my mental and social issues.

The year started out strangely with all of the celebrity (and others, which wouldn't really be considered celebrities, but were significant to me as they guided me through their lives of science, literature, and more) deaths, which just kept happening as the year progressed.

I've been under a lot of stress lately as I attempt to figure out how I am going to take care of my family and keep them from being thrown on the street if we lose the house.

In addition, there has been a lot of drama with friends here in the Corpus Christi area - and of course the horrible events of the last week and dealing with locals that can't see the issues involved.

Now, two hours ago, our neighbor's 20 year old son took his own life with a handgun in his back yard. I'm afraid I'm going to lose it. My social phobia prevents me from discussing this with anyone except my wife, who is also overburdened with all of this. To top it all off, I'm feeling horrible about myself because of the fact that every single post in the Facebook group for our HOA is talking about praying for the family and it's driving me crazy, though I'll never say anything to them about it.

Anyway, I just needed a place to vent, sorry.

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This year might break me [View all] qnr Jul 2016 OP

Hugs shenmue Jul 2016 #1

Thank you so much. qnr Jul 2016 #2

Hang in there. rug Jul 2016 #3

Thank you. I do understand what you mean - didn't mean qnr Jul 2016 #4

Sounds like you might need to take a little break from some of the activities that you do have patricia92243 Jul 2016 #5

Thanks. In general, I don't watch television, and the HOA is qnr Jul 2016 #10

That would be great!! We all at DU can enjoy them if you enter the monthly patricia92243 Jul 2016 #24

Thanks = I'm working on setting up some projects, qnr Jul 2016 #35

I wish you peace. I've no great words of wisdom but it's good to talk with people. think Jul 2016 #6

Thank you. Yes, i have also been deeply involved in learning qnr Jul 2016 #12

Even though mercuryblues Jul 2016 #7

Thank you. There is some good advice there. We will follow qnr Jul 2016 #14

Hang in there! Sending Prayers and good thoughts your way. AgadorSparticus Jul 2016 #8

Thank you, I appreciate it very much. qnr Jul 2016 #16

I'm so sorry. area51 Jul 2016 #9

Thank you, I really do appeciate the support. qnr Jul 2016 #17

You're going through a lot. Lunabell Jul 2016 #11

Thank you for the vibes. The family is qnr Jul 2016 #18

I am sorry to hear you are having these problems. Behind the Aegis Jul 2016 #13

Thank you very much. I appreciate the thoughts on paths to take. qnr Jul 2016 #19

This is a great place to vent Madam Mossfern Jul 2016 #28

Thank you, I agree, most of the advice I see here qnr Jul 2016 #36

Hosting photo contests isn't mandatory for winners justiceischeap Jul 2016 #31

It started for me with Grimmie. joshcryer Jul 2016 #15

Yeah, I know, that whole Orlando week qnr Jul 2016 #20

Best wishes qnr. joshcryer Jul 2016 #22

With you in solidarity. The feeling of being overwhelmed can become unbearable in the moment. Surya Gayatri Jul 2016 #21

Thank you, I'm working on finding it. qnr Jul 2016 #38

Glad you vented. I wish your families well through sad trying times. Festivito Jul 2016 #23

Thank you. I appreciate your thoughts. qnr Jul 2016 #39

If I may. Festivito Jul 2016 #63

Indeed, a good point. n/t qnr Jul 2016 #65

Sorry to hear about your stress. Vattel Jul 2016 #25

Thank you. I really should do it. It's mostly qnr Jul 2016 #40

It won't break you. You are strong. bigwillq Jul 2016 #26

Thank you. Most of the time I know that. qnr Jul 2016 #41

I don't usually reply to threads like these but I wanted to put in KingCharlemagne Jul 2016 #27

Thanks. I understand what you mean about not replying qnr Jul 2016 #42

You are not alone. Jitter65 Jul 2016 #29

Thanks - I know you're right, and in general we qnr Jul 2016 #43

oh how I wish I had some magical power to grant wishes rurallib Jul 2016 #30

Thank you. Indeed, magical powers would be awesome. qnr Jul 2016 #44

I'm glad you vented. I wish I knew something useful to reply. merrily Jul 2016 #32

Thank you - your taking the time to reply does a lot qnr Jul 2016 #45

You're more than welcome. Please feel better. merrily Jul 2016 #60

*huge hug* GreenPartyVoter Jul 2016 #33

Thanks! qnr Jul 2016 #46

Hang on. You can get through. Squinch Jul 2016 #34

Thank you. I appreciate the thoughts very much. qnr Jul 2016 #47

It is VERY difficult if you are not used to it, but I found it to be the way to crack the walls Squinch Jul 2016 #52

You've got a ready made support group here at DU. GoneOffShore Jul 2016 #37

I agree, as angry as some threads can make me at qnr Jul 2016 #48

Hugs. I see you. I hear you. (nt) ehrnst Jul 2016 #49

It's appreciated - hugs back n/t qnr Jul 2016 #50

God, what a horrifying event. Keep posting here as needed. villager Jul 2016 #51

Thank you. I agree about the community qnr Jul 2016 #53

I am sorry for what you are going through. yardwork Jul 2016 #54

I appreciate that very much, thank you :D n/t qnr Jul 2016 #56

Villager, I'm so sorry this is all piling up like this. Hortensis Jul 2016 #55

Thank you. You're right - I'm distracting myself by qnr Jul 2016 #57

Hugs for you and your wife. 840high Jul 2016 #58

Thank you so much n/t qnr Jul 2016 #61

Vibes to you and your wife essme Jul 2016 #59

Thank you. That's a good idea. We used to have qnr Jul 2016 #62

Never really felt the need to register and post until now, but you are worth it longtimelistener Jul 2016 #64

Thank you - it is an interesting feeling getting your first post. qnr Jul 2016 #66

I'm sorry for what you are going through. OhioBlue Jul 2016 #67

Thank you, that is excellent advice qnr Jul 2016 #68