my mother is dying

[MontanaMama]

41. Thanks for acknowledging that Mothers Day

Isn't a simple day of hearts, flowers and fond memories for many of us kpete. I appreciate your truth telling about your experience and opening the door for those who experienced less than ideal relationships with our mothers. This is a bittersweet day for me too. My mom suffered from mental illness, depression and most likely borderline personality disorder, according to my skilled therapist. She dwelled in darkness while I watched scared and sad. She's been gone for years and while I miss the idea of having a mother, I don't miss the reality of her. Coincidentally, my favorite holiday is Hallowwen too!!! My mom hated it which is probably why I gravitated to it.

I'm happy that you've found some peace in the love of the family you created. Being a mother has been the single most gratifying endeavor of my life. My heart sings whenever I hear my son call me Mama.


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