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FirstLight

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Tue May 23, 2023, 05:47 PM

May 2023

I haven't cried much today, numbness I guess.

I hate that I have to wait till I get paid Friday to help my puppy cross the Rainbow Bridge. The local shelter will do it for $60, I can't be with her when they do it. Dont know if I can handle that, I dont want her to be scared and think I just dumped her.
The vet charges between $150-200... I just dont have much money, especially since my coming paycheck took a hit from losing hours to go to the hospital.

I wish there was an easy solution.
(My partner says she's got enough valium we could do it here... but I can't bury her in the yard, the bears & coyotes would dig her up. which is a horrific thought)

I hate that she's suffering

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Heartbroken, that's all ... [View all] FirstLight May 2023 OP

So sorry montanacowboy May 2023 #1

Tough times for you, indeed... OAITW r.2.0 May 2023 #2

Your heart is in pieces now but I know it Polly Hennessey May 2023 #3

I'm so sorry for your losses. fierywoman May 2023 #4

yea, mine were together for 60 years.... FirstLight May 2023 #7

So sorry Walleye May 2023 #5

..I feel for you, FirstLight whathehell May 2023 #6

my partner is here and my sister and I have been holding eachother... FirstLight May 2023 #8

Good..I'm glad you're not alone whathehell May 2023 #14

Oh dear. This is a lot... MontanaMama May 2023 #9

I'm so sorry 😞 live love laugh May 2023 #10

Hugs for FirstLight, family and friends Tikki May 2023 #11

I am very sorry. murielm99 May 2023 #12

I can only imagine what you are going through 40RatRod May 2023 #13

That's so much... Laurelin May 2023 #15

I'm so sorry for your losses. KS Toronado May 2023 #16

I'm really sorry. onecaliberal May 2023 #17

A terrible weight. ancianita May 2023 #18

So sorry... anciano May 2023 #19

I am so sorry, FirstLight. So much for you to carry. debm55 May 2023 #20

So very sorry snowybirdie May 2023 #21

This is so so much to bear, I am so sorry irisblue May 2023 #22

Very little will console you now, but know we are all here. Fla Dem May 2023 #23

Death dcmfox May 2023 #24

yea, true... FirstLight May 2023 #26

Yes, life is all about loss. flying_wahini May 2023 #29

Yes...each day is a gift. Deuxcents May 2023 #41

Sending vibes for healing and strength. You know that your DU family will be holding niyad May 2023 #25

thanks. FirstLight May 2023 #30

Lady of the Beasts, please take Your precious little one gently home. Do not niyad May 2023 #35

there might be an org. in the area that will come to your house to help your furbaby cross over orleans May 2023 #67

I can't imagine the succession of losses you have suffered, all so close together. MLAA May 2023 #27

You're shouldering a lot. forgotmylogin May 2023 #28

that makes sense, definitely FirstLight May 2023 #31

Good for you! forgotmylogin May 2023 #32

Isn't that nice! Yep an amazing resource! Backseat Driver May 2023 #45

May you and your family find comfort in the love you have and happy japple May 2023 #33

My deepest condolences to you. virgdem May 2023 #34

Too much! Jean Genie May 2023 #36

There are no sufficient words. I can't even either. Sending a GIANT hug to you. LoisB May 2023 #37

I feel for you. chowder66 May 2023 #38

What LoisB above said. Duppers May 2023 #39

I'm sorry to hear this. My condolences ... aggiesal May 2023 #40

3 deaths in one year is hard to handle! pazzyanne May 2023 #42

I am so sorry for your losses. Evolve Dammit May 2023 #43

My heart is with you Goddessartist May 2023 #44

So sorry IbogaProject May 2023 #46

So sorry. milestogo May 2023 #47

I'm so sorry vercetti2021 May 2023 #48

I am so very sorry for your loss, FirstLight. sheshe2 May 2023 #49

This message was self-deleted by its author sheshe2 May 2023 #50

Sorry for your loss. AltairIV May 2023 #51

Oh gosh, FirstLight! cilla4progress May 2023 #52

I'm so sorry, FL Wicked Blue May 2023 #53

I'm so sorry 😞 Raine May 2023 #54

I lost both parents in the same year. usonian May 2023 #55

thank you, so pretty! FirstLight May 2023 #59

I am near Yosemite, as the Mariposa Lily might suggest. usonian May 2023 #61

Carson valley is definitely saturated too! FirstLight May 2023 #62

I am so sorry, FirstLight. peacebuzzard May 2023 #56

THANK YOU for the Love FirstLight May 2023 #57

That's too much. redwitch May 2023 #58

Love's Light TFRD May 2023 #60

I'm so sorry! That's a lot to deal with. Ocelot II May 2023 #63

5/21 sucks for me also my mother passed that day 7 years ago kimbutgar May 2023 #64

Im sorry ... FirstLight May 2023 #66

That must be overwhelming. I am so sorry, FirstLight. pnwmom May 2023 #65

My heart hurts for you. JudyM May 2023 #68

Big ol' road a pot holes. I'm sure sorry for your loss and pain. MerryBlooms May 2023 #69

Thank you ..I can definitely relate with you FirstLight May 2023 #72

This message was self-deleted by its author FirstLight May 2023 #70

So sorry! colorado_ufo May 2023 #71

Just sending you love and support. calimary May 2023 #73

Hugs Duncanpup May 2023 #74

I prayed for you. They are still with you Joinfortmill May 2023 #75

Too sad malaise May 2023 #76

Hugs for you❣️ claudette May 2023 #77

I'm so sorry for your losses. area51 May 2023 #78

That's a lot to bear Sanity Claws May 2023 #79

So sorry. TdeV May 2023 #80

My deepest condolences on your loss, FirstLight. Niagara May 2023 #81

I'm sorry. Bluethroughu May 2023 #82

I'm so sorry. yardwork May 2023 #83

Oh, woah! My condolences. That's really rough! ... electric_blue68 May 2023 #84

So sorry... Phentex May 2023 #85

I'm so sorry. Snackshack May 2023 #86

I'm so sorry. CousinIT May 2023 #87

So sorry liberal N proud May 2023 #88

We're with you Wild blueberry May 2023 #89

My deepest condolences (nt) LostOne4Ever May 2023 #90