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[LuckyCharms]

I've had a lot of shit wrong with me in my life, but nothing this bad.

I've been doing a lot of physical work.

Blew my back out while gardening a few weeks ago. Every time this happens, I tell myself that this is the worst it's ever been. I've had several MRIs on my spine, and at that time, it showed various "moderate" damage to several vertebrae.

Whatever the hell this shit is, it's not "moderate".

I'm actually scared to go to the ER, because they will do a CT scan. It literally takes me close to a half an hour to get into bed at night, and I've been using a portable urinal so I don't have to re-live that torture at 300am. I don't think I could lay on a CT table without sedation.

Dug out an old bottle of Oxycodone. Taking just half a pill at a time because they don't make me feel good. I'm also eating muscle relaxants. Neither are doing much good.

Called my provider and asked her to put me on Prednisone. Started it this morning, and it's already making me puke and jump right through my own ass. It's also shooting my blood glucose into the 300's even after doubling my basal insulin dose.

Just spent the last half hour sobbing and screaming in the shower.

YAY!

No need to respond. I just wanted to type this out. I don't think I'll be able to address any responses.

I'm just hoping it goes away. It always does.

Thanks for reading.

Keep up the good fight.