Do you think this is just trashy?

[Maraya1969]

7. You know that part about not wanting to change? I see him saying he wants to change but doing

the same things over and over and ending up in the same mess. If anything they are both a good bad example for me of something I never ever want to be like. I know deep down they are both good hearted. They are just addicts and they first love, desire, need is their drug. They have to have it.

That being said over the years they have helped me a lot. I live by myself and as a women alone I feel a little bit safer knowing that 2 guys are right around the corner if I ever need help. And when I have ever really needed them they have come through. Maybe the timing has been right so far and I haven't needed help when they were plastered or they take turns being plastered. I'm not close to most of my neighbors. Pretty much everyone on my block has moved away except them and there are new people. That is not to say I can't make new friends and its also not to say that I haven't tried but it is hard. When I first moved in this neighborhood people came over and introduced themselves to me. I try to do the same but people are kind of stand-offish. I don't know why.

And they also were not the first people I asked to drive me either. I waited until the last minute and until I was in a panic and I suffered the consequences. Up until that day I had planned on driving myself over and keeping my car at the airport.