when I thought I was a goner.
When I thought I had nothing to live for.
And then, inevitably, WITHOUT FAIL, AND EVERY SINGLE TIME, something would happen that would pull me out of the horrid abyss just enough to make me see that I was wrong.
I'm trying my hardest here to make you understand something...
You have saved someone's life...and you might never even know who, or why. You may never be made aware of it.
You flashed a quick smile at someone one day when they were thinking of killing themselves, and your smile stopped them. Don't believe me? Trust me, it's true, and it's something that you were not meant to be made cognizant of.
Someone in this world thinks that you are the cat's ass (that is a term that is used as a high compliment in my area of the world)...and they are never going to tell you that they think you are the cat's ass...but they truly believe that you are.
It's human nature to believe that we can't pull through when we are sick...but people pull through every day when things are looking their bleakest.
You're strong enough to type. You're husband loves you, even though it may not feel like he does right now. You may be fighting, you may be arguing, but he loves you. Conflict is part of love. Without true love and caring, there can be no conflict.
I read your Go Fund Me and I can sense how you are feeling right now...because I've been there, Old Baldy, and I've always pulled through.
And you will always pull through now. I promise you that you will pull through.
Don't you fucking dare make me wrong about this! 
You're going to be alright, I promise you. And money isn't going to be the thing that makes you alright. A better car isn't the thing that is going to make you alright. YOU are what is going to make you alright.
It's a beautiful world. OldBaldy. And you are part of that beautiful world. And the world would be less beautiful without you in it.
I speak from my heart, and I believe what I am telling you. I hope you believe these truths as well.
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