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[TemujinKhan]

46. You sound like an Improved version of myself

Well..., I'm thinking a lot of the same crap about myself..., plan to try applying for SSI , since I have already been diagnosed with ADHD, Social Anxiety Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder & Tourettes syndrome, plus took some tests online all said I very likely have aspergers syndrome, also got undiagnosed arthritis, carple tunnel, fibromyalgia..., maybe ptsd.., & a gunshot wound to my foot... now fused together with a piece of metal & some screws etc

I drink too..., unlike you I never held a job in my life longer than a week unless you count a little once a week janitorial thing..., just a lot of one or 2 day temp job things..., & I guess Not A LOT considering the space in between them..

Oh & sounds like you actually went to college at some point, haven't done that either yet...,

I'm 30...& have been doing a lot of research just trying to identify precisely what the hell is wrong with me..., why do I sit in my room & hide away from the world when I'm not drunk...., freak out at every little noise worried it's someone come to kill me or something,

I have been getting more worried lately, more aware of my shortcomings, beginning to notice that I've got too much in common with the bums I've run into down by river & so on... afraid if I can't get my shit together, or get on SSI or get housing asap...., I'm liable to end up living in a tent in the woods until the govt burns my tent down & beats me to death for being homeless..., or drags me to a tent city concentration camp..., Oh yeah Also I'm kinda like Mel Gibsons Character in the movie Conspiracy Theory..., minus the employment & apartment...

Good luck to you man...., I hope all of us.., that are as fucked up as me can get our shit together, Good luck to us all....