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[CanSocDem]

20. I consciously avoid people like you...

" I'm the most pessimistic guy you'll ever meet, pathologically so. I take powerful psych meds; without them I'm a danger to myself."

...not because you're a bad person, but because your 'random shit falling from the sky' might fall on me. It sounds like your "expectations" are dangerous. That's fine; live your life as you wish. Your life is your own and you form it.

We all want to belong to a group that shares our values and aspirations. I have said before that this, more than "God, universe or mother nature", is what binds us together and gives our lives purpose.
In the American free-market medical industry there is a large subculture that celebrates and promotes ill health. There are those that hope to make money from affecting a cure and those that consider it "random shit falling from the sky" that they have no control over. Same with religion; you choose what you want to believe and live your life accordingly.

People love to talk about the hardships they have endured. Too often, however, they let their past become their present. They call it more 'random shit' and dig in their heels. They have never been taught to visualize and 'expect' a brighter future because you know,

"Positive thinking" isn't a bad thing, but like many human beliefs, it's not a rational thing."

Now, since we're trying to help the OP with something a little more substantive than a , I know that as a truck driver, he is already aware of the power of positive thinking. You don't get safely down the road by thinking every 4-wheeler is out to get you; the OP has already expressed an ability to foresee a brighter future so we aren't doing him any favours, nor is he doing himself a favour by accepting or even acknowledging " Random shit falling from the sky."


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